I put these bad boys on for the first time in well over a year...my beloved work shoes. My first reaction was a laugh because I know a couple of co-workers that would fall down and die knowing the number of bodily fluids these babies have met and the fact that I brought them inside my house would utterly disgust them (yes I have washed them). The second reaction was that I missed that adrenaline rush and human connection that unless you are a nurse you may never understand what I am talking about. The third reaction was of gratitude because I was able to make a living doing something that I LOVED as a labor nurse! Here is the reality and it makes me sad to think about. I was making a living but forgetting to make a life and I dont like to admit it but I just couldnt cut it. I wanted to be super nurse, I wanted to be super mom, I wanted to be super friend, and I wanted to be just a remarkable human being. I had my moments to shine in those areas for sure but the more realistic reality was that I was a sleep-deprived, undernourished, nauseated, physically ill, emotional, and an unhealthy mess. Life at home was not a bed of roses and so I preferred to be at the hospital because I had no choice but to perform, smile, and be kind. I just couldnt find the balance and as a type A personality that is a tough pill to swallow. So, instead I made a change...a change that many do not understand. If you would have known my home life, our financial circumstances, or knowing we were merely just surviving you could possibly have some empathy of why Drew Mahar and I needed this business and I cant fathom where we would be without it. So now I put these shoes on and I am blessed to have choices. I may find myself one day back at the bedside next to a laboring woman or I might be just fine for the next 18 years being a mom, a wife, and one heck of a business owner. What I do know is that I am capable in all things. I was not put on this earth to just survive...I was put on this earth to LIVE! So today I am beyond thankful for opportunities and the courage to try. #LiveTheLifeYouLove #LoveTheLifeYouLive
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 19:55:43 +0000