I really hate it when I am having one of these episodes..my body is so exhausted that I have a headache and cant see straight but my brain wont shut off and let me rest. All I can think about right now is the 2 strips of paper laying in the hallway and how badly I wana vacuum them up and go to the old house and get the rest of my stuff so I can hang my pictures and put away my books. Anyone with bipolar disorder(especially manic-depressive schizophrenic bipolar disorder, such as myself) understands and knows what I mean. Even those who have a loved one with it. It hits them the hardest I think.. what really sucks is that I already know whats coming..in a day or two I will be out of the mania episode and into the depressive one. Which means I wont wana talk to anyone or do anything except sleep. But of course I cant because I have children and school starting soon and Dr Appts to go to and make..i wish I could get my meds back so that I could feel better and not have to worry with all this or put my family through it. Especially my husband. He puts up with and helps me through SO much crap its almost impossible to believe..except I live it so I know its true. He truly has no idea how thankful I am for all he does and how proud I am of him for how well he handles my episodes and how blessed I am that God thought it necessary to give him to ME of all people. I truly love and adore you baby and I appreciate you more than you will ever know. Mwa!
Posted on: Mon, 01 Sep 2014 03:18:26 +0000
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