I really like fb -the space between us - sometimes and no offense , people can be so weird ...i get annoyed , not much for petty talk ..or drama .so i prefer quiet and drama free -Peace , to some thats boring , but i like my own zone :) ...Today i wondered if i am meant to be one of those old eccentric old ladies alone -oh , my guy friend is good to hang around ...but i never had much success with relationships ...*it is what it is ...i am not troubled by my alone time - i do what i want ...so i am not sure , i might be one of those crazy cat ladies -kind of tired just thoughts i had today -it felt the best... feeling with the sun on my face and my eyes .. warm ♥...i had other thoughts too like , how do some people get the jobs they have when they are so clueless ?? Lol -i think , so many out of work and you have 20 earrings pierced on your face and yet you cant count back change¿¿)...these are the big mysteries to me ;) lol .. Years ago when i worked at the senior center -i helped take care of a man with alzheimers -he said something repeatedly that i thought was very interesting ,at first it didnt make sense but it was , profound *really -so i put his quote on my office wall he said to me ; well everyone knows what they want , but nobody knows what they need ( he was referring to his past work as a car salesman -he thought the cars in the senior center were for sale :) anyways ...lately , i have had to think about what i really need -not just what i want -and these can be two very distinct things -i want a old fashioned travel trailer , but its not what i need :)* ..and we all have. ..true needs ~and as i age those needs are completely changed -what used to seem really neccesary , really wasnt anything at all -when i look back ..:) the best part of getting older is the benefits -like caring less about trival B.S....and i have hard time with people who wanna be dumb and act like a fool ..like the lady says aint nobody got time for that :) lol -and everything in this time of my life is important ..in my family -our relatives dont have long life spans -maybe to 78 ...?? So being my age ~ if i get to 70 -thats only 20 more years -and the last 50 , flew by fast :/..so thats an important thought , how do i want the next possible 20 years?? -only God knows how many years i get to stay here -but one thing for sure , for the next 20 i am committed. To living the way i need -say what i need to say , without reservation or people pleasing -do what is best for me , even if die trying ...i am going to be the truest to me that i have ever been so far ..and God also reminded me the other day that beauty , is fleeting ...for women and men ..too many of us worry and put too much into beauty -appearances ...diets , clothing , make up , working out but not working on real life stuff while trying to outlast everyone else :) too many things are fleeting and dont deserve to consume that much of our time -so back to the important stuff , i have to weigh the scales -on knowing what i want and not what i need ....i think its important to know .so i am being mindful about it ♡:) love to all. .
Posted on: Wed, 12 Mar 2014 04:47:22 +0000