I really needed to see this quote. I was just beating my self up because I said some horrible things to my sweetheart and his granddaughter. I was really disrespectful and out of line. I wasnt presenting myself as a Woman of God. Carnal...carnal...carnal!!!This temptation is constantly before me to fist fight with my sweetheart granddaughter. I say to myself I can really handle her. She came to my home with a man and a woman and called me out to fight last year. I know I am a Woman of God . The thoughts of being an ex gang member and ride or die person was before me in this face off that happened last year. It tore me apart emotionally physically and spiritually because I did not fight. I did not understand. Especially when my sweetheart expressed to me that he had to keep her from whipping my behind.....I said to myself that God gets the Glory because he do not know what God has brought me from. I chose to pray and give God praise. This thirty year old woman is a challenge. I dont want to hurt any family member of someone I love. I go through my sweetheart phone and this starts chaos. Lord please grant me self control. I can become very controlling at times. Im wrong. I know this behavior is wrong. Lord let me truly have Faith in my belief to transform in this area of my life. I so earnestly want to become a peacemaker. I love good kindness and compassion. The book of James state I cannot serve two masters. The Lord is my salvation...please help me Lord protect me in this relationship. Show me please Lord..... I hate when I curse. It is something I must put far from me. I have Faith and Trust God. Im learning I dont have to present myself as hard or tough. Im learning that I so desire to hold my peace. Tame my tongue! I read a paperback book once called Taming the Tongue. I didnt do what I know to do. My prayer is that I have an opportunity to make my amends and never ever have this young woman as a potential threat. I really would like for us to have a better relationship instead of acting really hard and I know that is not me. Life sure is full of so many trials and test. The funny part is that Im forcing myself to be bad. Prayer prayer prayer!!!!DONT GIVE UP KIMBERLY IT GETS BETTER :-)
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 06:49:02 +0000