I sent several text messages this morning. I dont think it will change anything, though there is this faint hope that it will. We cannot change people. They have to change themselves. I am not willing to subject myself to emotional abuse. I have lived in those walls and those halls. Men - - If you dont like an Independent COMPLICATED woman, dont look here. I am a product of my past. I didnt choose my environment. I didnt WANT to be what I am > I was forced to become what I am in order to survive. Just because I am now assertive, independent, outspoken, politically opinionated, etc does not mean that I am not human. I still need that tender touch, the gentle holding, the whispered words, love and tenderness, the respect for my fragility, the arms that will protect me and the voice that will encourage me. That COARSE TOUGH exterior is sheltering an extremely fragile psyche, protecting it from the harsh realities it has survived. My children would not be who and what they are today, if it were not for this complicated, independent female trying to raise them the right way, regardless of circumstance and victimization. Before you so quickly judge, step back, look deeper and see the truth and the reality. If you cant handle it - - walk away. Dont even speak words you do not mean or cannot keep. Stop being shallow and be real. The recent deaths in my life have only solidified things. It is difficult to SEIZE THE DAY and live in the moment, taking every moment for what it is worth, when you have people in life who still want to PLAY THE GAME. I am NOT PLAYING! LIFE IS REAL. If you cannot be real, please leave. Dalaine is gone. She died 13 yrs ago. NOBODY knew me like my sister.....nobody was so attached at the heart and soul. Dale just died a month ago.... after 7 yrs and I was too blind to see what was in front of me.... NOBODY knows me like Dale did. NOBODY has ever been there for me like he was..... my opportunities were missed, not realizing what was in front of me, too scared to reach and grasp and claim it. NOW, I live - - SEIZE THE DAY mentality. Thank you, Matt, for this song. Matt Williams, IN ANOTHER LIFE. us.yhs4.search.yahoo/yhs/search?hspart=iry&hsimp=yhs-fullyhosted_003&type=dsites0103_ag65_yiry¶m1=1¶m2=sid%3D7a76ebab01c6c63eb911c3deabd594b3%26ulng%3Den-US%252Cen%253Bq%253D0.8%26b%3DChrome%26ip%3D69.9.230.123%26p%3Dmysearchdial%26x%3DD0DF9A38A103C0DF%26dt%3DC779%26f%3D4%26a%3Ddsites0103&p=matt+williams%2C+you%27ll+make+her+cry
Posted on: Sun, 19 Oct 2014 13:39:28 +0000
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