I teach workshops called Manifestation Workshops so you can bet your bottom dollar that I believe in asking for what you want. For a long time, I couldn’t. This was for a number of reasons. One being I didn’t think I was worth it, and two, I didn’t know what I wanted. I spent years trying to be an actress, and by “trying” I mean refilling ketchup bottles at a restaurant and hoping that someone would discover me (True story. I did.) I had friends in the business and people I waited on that were all willing to “help” me but here’s the catch: I didn’t really want it. So I’d whine and moan that no one really helped anyone and that everyone was full of it and woe is me, but the truth is that I didn’t go for it. I didn’t follow up. I didn’t show up. Which is to say, I was kind of a walking dead person. I had no idea what I needed to make myself come back to life. I resented my situation in life as well as waitressing but I had no idea how to make a move in any direction so I let time pass until the years collected on top of each other like dirty plates and I was still pouring decaf coffees. A couple things happened, well, many things happened, as I did work at the restaurant for thirteen years, but for brevity’s sake, let’s just say that I had a meltdown. Like in back of the building where everyone went out to smoke kind of meltdown. (Not me though, I didn’t smoke. I may drink wine but cigarettes never appealed to me. My dad smoked four packs a day up until the day he died. It kind of put me off.) I had an epiphany, as my friend Elise Ballard, author of Epiphany and fellow Positively Positive contributor, would call it. At the time I didn’t call it an epiphany though. I slid down the wall and wept and felt sorry for myself. How could I go on being so miserable? I lamented. There was only one answer: I couldn’t. I had to make a move. Any move. That’s the thing about being stuck. One tiny move is all you need at first. **See you in NYC Sep 27!! Pure ova NYC. register through their site. Dallas Nov 1 and Miami Nov 8. All info on my site. xxjennyjenp
Posted on: Sat, 20 Sep 2014 13:00:01 +0000
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