I think I needed this more than anything. To put it extra lightly, life has been hard for me lately. Almost to the point of no return. I feel as though Ive lost my heart and my will and all the life inside me. Not to long ago i fell to the floor crying and there was nothing left in my to hold me up. No one could save me, not even the people i love most in this world. I cant explain it. So as I lay on the floor, I just gave myself to God. I said let thine will be done, im at your mercy please help me. . .Every day pretty much all throughout the day i pray. It is still very very hard and everyday is a struggle and I have a long way to go, I know. . .Last night I was praying and begging god to just give me one reason, just one. At that very second, that very second, my Aunt called. After the phone call I looked at God and said really? The phone call didnt go all that great but she has been there for me even when its so hard to even try to help me. She is the one person I love more than anyone on this planet. I asked god to give me a reason and at that moment my Aunt called. Its when youre at your weakest in life that you are the strongest with God. . .About a month ago or so I was begging God to just let me see Seth just one more time, i want to kiss him and hold him. I begged God to bring him to my dreams and i prayed to remember it. That night Seth came to me. There was an opening in my wall with a bright light behind and coming through. I looked up and Seth was standing inside. I dont think i ever jumped up so quick my life. I ran and jumped on him, at 68 270 lbs He was used to me doing this. I wrapped my arms around him and started to kiss him all over, I thought to myself I didnt know how long this would last so I kissed his lips. Everything was white and there were a few children sitting Indian style on the ground and a couple of people were standing a ways back. He seemed at peace, like real peace. We talked a little and at the end of the dream he said he had to go. As he walked back into the light I woke up. . . I wanted to share with you what Ive been going through, how I found God again and what God has done for me. I think its different for everyone. 4 month ago God was pretty much Hog Wash. Now, hes the only one who can save me. Its ok to pray, in my case i usually beg, but he hears you none the less and he loves you. Thanks for reading my post. https://youtube/watch?v=LL3z50cDmEg
Posted on: Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:37:55 +0000
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