I think this time, I might just let myself lie here and bleed.. I always get up as fast as I can fighting harder then before so I can succeed. But so far Its like Ill never do such.. and yet what comes to mind are those who never give up.. J.K.Rowling, she went through 81 different publishers before she succeeded.. and so on. all the way to anime, Goku and Naruto, never give up no matter how hard they end up being beaten down and crying.. They get back up. The Woodpecker, all the way to Ashley... Even myself... Who never gave up even in the end.. Ive even lived in the woods for a prolonged period of time alone and was able to get where I am.. But in the end, I find myself fighting myself to give up. I post on Facebook as my personal journal, why? because I can. I dont expect anything less then,yes faggot you are a piece of shit. or something like that. I expect nothing less then someone telling me to shut up, just for them inside to feel insecure. pathetic and not let anyone know. This Marlon character, people like him make me sick. Act like they are better then everyone and pray on the weak. pretend like they are so good just to manipulate others into doing what they want. In the end, they are worthless shit. I have people who come out of no where and tell me I am an amazing person, all the way to someone I honestly never expected to tell me this. This girl is one of the strongest girls Ive EVER met and yet shes been beaten down and treated worse then shit. If you ever know this girl, dont let her go. Because she deserves nothing less then the best... And as I feel Im not that.. No matter what I do Im the problem. No matter what I do, I caused all the pain... even if I did nothing to start or even finish anything... so if youre one of the naive people who cannot stand up for themselves and cannot see whats in front of you, please dont come to see me. I have been hurt too many times by falling just to be the second best. Ive been hurt too many times by being chosen second compared to a friend or an ex.. This is my rant, and Im not done... I just dont know what else to say. Journal out.
Posted on: Mon, 30 Jun 2014 02:38:59 +0000
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