I told her before that someday shell be proud of me,Im almost there and I heared her plenty of times saying thank you to me for being a good daughter and sister to my sisters even the last few weeks before she died she keep on saying thank you to me,but what kills me the most was hearing the sharpest word from her mouth saying, SORRY because she thought she was a big problem to me not just financially but for everything.I keep on telling her everything is nothing to me,what matters me the most is her to survived.I dont care how much do I need to spend I can owe to all and gonna do everthing for her to survived I even ignored the pain that I felt that time I wanted to see her because I thought money can help but,I was wrong! Few last words I heared from her on the phone was Nak,I can no longer walk,move and Im so tired,take care always and I love you so much!I missed her every single second of my life,I maybe laughing out loud sometimes but, I cant deny that fact that some part of me is still bleeding inside.We would never feel the painful and the strongest feelings unless we loses someone we trully love.The worst feeling that I had never felt before and I think no more cure!
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 10:13:21 +0000