I too am Having a shitty emotional day/night... Went to bed with Ella last night and we both sleep 12 hours... Then didnt feel well and we took a 5 hour nap... Both woke up feeling better but feeling lonely and defeated by this day! Watched P.S. I Love You and that was clearly wrong because it reminded me of my Loves in Cleveland...! If I had at least been productive today I would have felt as though my workless day away from them was worthwhile but here I sit alone as Ella sleeps. I am holding Avas bunny kissing her forehead as I would kiss yours goodnight! Wishing our lives could be normal once again! That people wouldnt judge us for things they know nothing about. Then a text from my babe to read this entry floods me with even more emotions. The knowledge that Jeff H Frank is having a rough night too kills me! I want to be there to hold their hands as shots are given. Or to comfort them through it all! The one wish I keep making is to trade places with Ava but I know this too will never materialize.... Giving up my weekend there in the hopes of helping to make her wish back home come true! A pool in 3 weeks will be a feet unto itself but everyone is working so hard for you Boo Boo! To bring you some joy...! A little light amongst the storm! Every day Jeff, Ava and Ella are the reasons I move forward! Today it seems that both our emotions weighed us down but tomorrow is a new day! The sun will rise and it will be another day we have that previously we might not....! Sending all my Love and support to Cleveland as I write this with tears in my eyes! Walking down a path no one would choose but grateful that we still walk 4 strong! Thats because we are brAVA Strong....! Night...!
Posted on: Fri, 18 Jul 2014 03:39:50 +0000
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