I truly wish that I could say regardless of the circumstances I could still smile and PRETEND everything was right with the world. I could do that if it didnt make me feel like a hypocrite or one of those name it and claim it believers. Now do not get my wrong I believe God is in control and that prayer works and God is faithful, But I am not talking about God I am talking about me. I have decided I must be 100% human. So please do not let my whining and complaining make you thing that God is not in complete control and answer any prayer at anytime He sees fit. I am not doubting God my problem is ME! I fell three weeks ago and when I went to the Dr, a week later they told me I had three ruptured disks in the lower part or my back, two in the top of mine spine and arthritis all in my back. So I cant bend over, I cannot stand very long, I thought I was tough but this pain has put me down. I have an appointment with a Specialist in September, and in a little less than two months it is Nickies birthday! It will be three years in Feb. and to me it is like yesterday and then it is like forever. My cardiologist told me at my last visit that it was only by the grace of God that I am still here and I DO believe that. My coumadin nurse told me to order a book by Joel Osteen Your Best Life Now. So I ordered it now I just have to make myself concentrate long enough to read it and understand. I know better days are coming. I just have to hang tough and wait. Two things I am horrible at.God bless and keep you all safe, healthy and know you are loved!
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 16:16:01 +0000
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