I try not to get too mushy on here but after reading this you will either hopefully understand or screw off. (In the nicest way possible, of course) For the last 3 weeks, I have been having a lot of inflammation around my heart and lungs connected with lupus. Its been an extremely difficult time as although Ive had problems for years, this past year has been the worst symptom wise. Ive had many, many sleepless nights, many tears, many doubts. Ive had fluid drained twice from my chest in a three week span and it has put my self esteem in low spots when I realize I cant do all of the things Id like to do. The most frustrating part of it all, is that through it, I live alone now for a lot of it. However, this morning reminded me of why I have every reason to smile despite how things have been going. I have been blessed with the most supportive family a girl could ask for, simply because I know they are all warriors themselves and remind me daily. I have been fortunate to have the help of my best friend as well as new friends when Ive felt embarrassed or insecure about needing things done for me. But today Id like to point out that I have also had the constant love and support from a man over 1,100 miles away day in and day out. There is not a day he hasnt tried to make me smile or know how much I am loved. Today makes my heart smile because after 3wks of much fear, doubt and much emotion, I finally get to see him. The battle may not be over, but this war is won.
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 12:09:30 +0000