I waited for 4 months to watch the Mandela movie starring Idris Alba. I wasnt meant to watch it until now and I know why. I needed to get a message and it came right on time. The message is really simple and when you read it you are going to be like Girl, I thought you knew, well maybe some of you will but many of you will not comprehend the depth of what this phrase means so of course I will elaborate. The message I received from watching this Mandela movie was Forgiveness brings Peace. The light came on for me today because it was my time to realize the meaning in a very personal way. You see I have been hurt throughout my life by so many people, circumstances or what have you and I am of great certainty that I do not stand alone in this experience. My pattern of processing this hurt has been withdrawal, letting my anger simmer and just letting time do what it does to help the pain of my experience numb to where I had no feelings about it anymore. That is not growth and this pattern will stagnate you from reaching your fullest potential in life as it has me. The many, many times I have allowed rejection and disregard dictate to my actions I am not ready to count. But from this day forward I choose to forgive immediately. Im sure I wont understand every time why the offense was directed towards me or mine but its not my place to understand. You see I belong to God. He knows, He sees and He will reveal to me in His time. I must just trust and forgive immediately. I know this is easy to say but so very hard to do. However it can be done through prayer. Commit your thoughts, your hurts, even your doubts to God and He will give you the peace that passes all understanding. I know that God is getting me ready for this mission trip to the Ukraine because I just recently experienced a hurt that had me questioning why now? The timing is so not right for this, I dont have time to wait for this wound to heal but I cannot go minister from a place of hurt! I was so mad at the devil (still mad; I stay mad at him though) and angry over the nonsense. I believe God allowed this to happen so that I could get IT. My deliverance came before I even finished watching the movie, a damn broke inside of me and the tears poured out like a gully washer. Not in church at the altar but right here in my bed I received the internal healing I have been needing for years from being hurt by church members, family, coworkers, even my spouse and children. You see the enemy will use any and everybody he can to get at you, cause you to stumble and fall or just be broken. But God. He is a healer, He will pick up the broken pieces of your heart and make it brand new again if you let Him. Forgive immediately and He will do the rest. Forgiveness brings Peace. ~Laverne Valerisse Bell-Wallace
Posted on: Sun, 06 Apr 2014 17:59:51 +0000