I was surprised to hear this one oldie come on, Destinys Childs Emotion. Oh man, the memories... I met Bear October 14, 2001 and oh my goodness, I fell madly in love with him by October 28. I couldnt tell him. I had to keep that to myself for the simple fact that he told me he was living at home with a long time girlfriend. Smh... He lied to me. He lied to me to protect me from getting attached to him. At 22 years old, my heart knew that I loved him. But my mind knew that he couldnt love me back. The other woman was in her 30s; financially stable; and from what he told me, she was stunningly beautiful. There was no way he could love me. Yet I continued to see him and fall deeper in love with him. By January, I couldnt do it anymore. I couldnt confess my love to him. I couldnt allow my baby to be attached to him. I couldnt bare the thought of him breaking my heart. I couldnt imagine the pain I would feel. I had to end it with him. I had to. I ended my love affair with the greatest love Ive ever known. And I did it without him knowing just how much I loved him. I couldnt tell him. I just couldnt. So I called him while he was work and said, Hey Silly Bear. His voice, I remember to this day, was so sweet. Gentle. I felt his smile through the phone. He answered, Hey Boo Bear. How are you today? I held back my tears so he wouldnt hear me cry over the phone. I wasnt sure if I was making the right decision. But I had to be fair - to the other woman; to him; to my cub; and to me. I had to do what was right for all of us. I said, I cant see you anymore. My heart told me to just hang up to not engage in any dialogue that would convince me to change my mind. Id already known from what hes told me in the past, that once it was over, he was done. All I had to do was hang up. So I did. Nothing prepared me for what happened next. He kept calling. And calling. And calling. I kept crying. I couldnt do this to us. I wasnt built to be a fling. I wasnt built to be someone who enjoys a lovers company and hed be the one to terminate his relationship with me because hes chosen someone better. I just couldnt fathom ever being that woman. For days I played this song, Emotion. Oh my goodness. No more morning texts as I traveled to drop my cub off to my grandmothers house. No morning phone calls while I rode the bus in to work. No instant messaging throughout the day. Nothing. All I had was this one song and played it over and over and over and over and over and over...again. A week later, I received a phone call from him from his job number! Bear switched up on me. I answered and the sound of his voice was full of elation. He was excited when he said, Hey Bear, its me. I was at work and had to take the conversation out of the office. I cant lie, I was so happy to hear his voice. He told me that hed finally had a conversation with his lady. She asked if he was seeing someone and he told her that he was. And he said, As a matter of fact, Im in love with her. He had a confidential conversation with my mother and my supervisor to inform them that he was coming from Charlotte to Greensboro to take me and my son to come be with him. First I went to work and the staff were putting together a surprise for someone leaving them. I had no idea what was going on. I didnt ask questions; just assisted with the decorations and the putting the food out and placing the gifts on the table. Then everyone crowded in the conference room. We were waiting for the guest of honor. Then Bear walked through the door. I tinkled a little bit on myself. He didnt have a ring; I suppose because everything was so sudden. But he stood tall and handsome and confident and approached me to ask for my hand in marriage. Of course I said yes. How did he know I loved him enough to marry him? No... How did he know I was in love with him? So it turned out that was my farewell party that I did all the work putting together. Chuckling... We went back to the townhouse that I rented with my mother. My clothes were already packed, along with my cubs clothes and toys. On our journey back to Charlotte, my new home, we discussed some things. I told him I need a ring and we needed to set a date right away. Id already shacked up with Teen Cubs biological father. I wasnt about to do it with a grown ass man who knew he wanted me as his wife. He confessed to me all that had transpired; that he wasnt living at home with his ex. Shed moved out. BUT, she moved back in when he decided to bring me home. He said, The only issue is that the apartment is right around the corner from the house I used to live in. In other words, his ex was two minutes driving distance from where hed chosen our new home. My response was, I dont give a damn where she lives in distance to us. Youre about to be my husband, and thats all that matters to me. Yes, its just emotions for everyone. This song got me through the tough time I had to deal with the greatest love of all. But in making my decision to show him my worth, I evoked emotions in him that resulted in the realization that he didnt want to live without his Boo Bear. Is married! youtube/watch?v=xWKdMmH0B-E
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 22:20:05 +0000
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