I will say it again excuses are easy being someones victim Is easy being stuck angry judgemental easy what is hard is to be accountable for your actions an beliefs to admit you might be wrong to forgive others an love others I myself would rather do the hard work cause it sets me free an brings me peace all of this we have been through has open my eyes but more than anything else is what all you kids an grandkids are teaching us you may think we are a couple of old fashion fools but I can tell you all life is just way to short to waste it being scared angry bitter judgemental hateful mean disrespectful jealous envious unforgiving God wants us united devil wants us divided it Is all a choice God gave us free will an it is as simple as making a choice I so wished I had learn this earlier in life I could have had I made the choice to let go of my victim status at this point our lives are so out of our control it is unreal there Id no logical reason why we are making it I would have told you if something like this happen we would loose everything I been living day by day for 3 months now we have food bills are paid doctors paid meds bought. I have not been doing my cheap shopping broke all my past rules I would drive a cross town to save a dollar hadnt been doing that we have ate out way more than I would have ever allowed in the past we have survived 3 months without my husband working an we are making it my daughter stepped up an has helped with bills Davids job has provided for us but under it all I truly believe God has taken care of everything touched hearts when this first started I was scared to death an there was just to much I finally handed it off to God an have lived one moment one day at a time I have no control over anything but yet it Is all working yesterday is gone tomorrow is yet to come but in this moment I think it is safe to say I do believe God is watching over us I dont know his plan for David but I have to trust there is one an that God will use this situation how he sees fit as for me this has brought about freedom from some bondage baggage an guilt I had been carrying for a long time an that freedom feels great an to clarify what I just said none of that bondage guilt or baggage has anything to do with David it wad my personal junk God has used this sickness with David to open both our eyes to the fact we wasted some valuable time that we will not be wasting anymore so you who decide to stay chained to your bondage an baggage you dont know what you are missing
Posted on: Wed, 30 Jul 2014 05:57:11 +0000
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