I would go to support friends in ministry, and would see the anointing come forth out of them as they preached the Word of God, and I would say to myself Father I wish I could speak like that. I would read posts and see the anointing in the words and I would wish I could write like them. I would hear testimonies of open doors God had opened for others and hear how they are walking in their calling and I would ask Lord when is it going to be my time? I noticed that as I looked upon others it would have me belittling the gift and calling God has placed on my life and stirred up much insecurities and in me, that everyone is better than I, more intelligent than I, more stronger, smarter, talented, blessed, favored, and I felt more inadequate I felt, and less confident. Every message that I have ever posted God gave to me for me, first, then I shared. God had to show me as long as I measured myself by that which is fallible (make mistakes, imperfect) I will always see that which is not perfect about me, but when I measure myself by that which is infallible (perfect) I will see that which is good in me. Now I realize I may not be an eloquent speaker, gifted pulitzer prize writer, I may not be the most wise person, nor intellectual, but I am me, what you see on my page is what you get, I put on no pretenses, I think before I speak, I love God my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and truly want to be more Christ like, but in all reality at times my flesh get in the way, as a matter of fact stepping up to the pulpit terrified me and I spoke, but then I started running and still I admit, I run, if I give my word to do it I would, but it would be such a struggle within me, but I know God will bring me through. as long as I keep my eyes on Him, not on those around me.
Posted on: Wed, 26 Mar 2014 02:37:29 +0000
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