I would like to outline and share with you some of the thoughts and processes that I use every day. When my eyes open I am grateful for another day in which to be of use. The first thought that comes to me is I AM – IN THE WORK. I swing my legs over the bed and place the palms of my feet on the floor and at begin to work with my spine so that gravity can be felt in the lower spine while at the same time the shoulders widen, as does the chest, the four muscles which hold up my head are all stretched and relaxed and move into an upward alignment. This does not stress the back but opens me in all directions as I move from horizontal to vertical. I sweep away whatever cobwebs might be left from my sleep and I realize the truth of the fact that I have never been here at this time before, so that even things which I believe I have seen thousands of times I see a new. I then stand and become more vertical. I withdraw my mind and emotions from any wandering and ask them to join with me and the body as three different methods of receiving information, the mental, the emotional and the bodily sensations are brought into the same vertical space that I occupy. This frees me from any concern that is outside of my immediate purview. I then go about taking care of my body by either going to the toilet would to the kitchen to make coffee, tea or juice cut with water so that it is not too sweet, and after attending to my basic needs, I go to the seat in which I work in my daily quiet inner exercises or what is called quiet work. I have taken to sitting in a chair that is a perfect height and I sit towards the front of the chair so as not to use the back which might interfere with the spine and I said almost on the edge of the chair so that I can feel my two sits bones my buttocks and the smallest hint of the lower upper thigh. My knees are at a 90 degree angle in my bare feet touch the floor while my hands are brought together in my lap so that they touch but with no special attention to how they aligned with each other, just so long as they touch. I then begin my inner work. First I again realize that I have never been here before. I may think I have been here thousands of times in the same chair in the same place but sequential time has moved so that everything is brand-new. I look around me and notice whatever it is that I see or hear and then I close my eyes for a moment and I open them again and I see that nothing else around me is moving and so there is no current threat to the safety of my organism. Therefore I close my eyes and leave them closed for the duration of my inner work. Again I call upon my mind and my emotions, asking them to return to me – to the body so that the three can braid together as one. I do this gently without force. It is purely a request sweetly asked so that I am not dispersed. I may notice my breathing but I do nothing to change it. I may notice my heart beat and sometimes the pulse all the way out to the ends of the fingers and toes but I do nothing to change that either. I realize that I am a combustion device – my organism is that of a warm blooded creature, and I am continuously burning fuel from the foods I eat and the air I breathe in the information my senses bring to me. Being warmer than my surrounding, there exists an atmosphere of heat around me which rises until it reaches the top of my head where it exits upwards in what seems to be a candle flame shaped flame of heat which rises completely vertically until the currents of the air in the room disperse it. I realize that this heat atmosphere and through the top of my head this heat flame will continue for as long as my organism lives. Then I begin my inner work. I cannot describe my inner work except to say that during my daily inner work my body is stable, vertical and except for its natural movements of breathing, blood circulation and peristalsis to the alimentary canal it could be said that I am not moving, so my outer appearance is completely still and is Yin, while great activity takes place within me which is Yang. Where the outside is still, the inside is very active. Later these roles will reverse, and my body will become active while inside myself is an impenetrable silence; an incomprehensible quiet so that my attention is honed and focused in the manner of a laser which penetrates whatever is in front of my senses. All my senses become more vivid. Sensations on and in the body are felt stronger, as though my threshold of consciousness has lowered. The things which are in front of my eyes have more form and richer colors, and I hear things that are very far away with clarity. The food that I take in is rich in odor and taste, which allows me to differentiate those foods that are good for me or otherwise. I then follow the activities of a normal day. I may play guitar. I take care of my correspondents online or by telephone. I begin the process of reading, where for the last 25 or 30 years I have read five or six books at a time and none of them are fiction. I feel simply that there is not enough time for me to invest myself in someone elses fantasies or to be hypnotized into a plot. I do not read the newspaper because it is just a list of bad things that happened to somebody else or somewhere else. I dont enter into small-talk; I do not gossip and things that are told to me in confidence never leak, even from 30 or 40 years ago. I may watch television but principally documentarys. Being a musician my entire life it may be strange for me to say but I have not listened to music for simple pleasure since 1977. My brain has been too finely honed as a professional for me to set that aside and simply enjoy music as a single thing. All the component parts I hear separately including room sounds such that I used to be able to name songs played on 45 RPM records before the music started, because I could recognize the sound of the atmosphere and tape, and recognize what song was about to come on. That is more than enough to speak of today.
Posted on: Mon, 21 Apr 2014 18:31:38 +0000
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