I wrote and posted this about 5 years ago a year after an incident which inspired me to write it and needed to read it again today and just thought someone else may need it too. Hope it blesses you as it has me. ROLE MODEL He was my role model. Everything I wanted to be and more. Then one day, I found out something terrible. Something I would never have imagined. Not in a million years. He was human. All this time I thought, he was different. Beyond human. Of course I knew he was flesh and blood. But I not like me. Fallible and imperfect. He taught things that changed lives. That changed my life in so many ways. I could not imagine a better person to emulate to become the person I wanted to be. His character and passion for helping and changing the lives of others. So inspiring, I wanted to be like him, help people like him. Then one day I was in crisis. I needed him. I was in need. He didnt have time. He was too busy. The situation was dire. I needed help. Guidance. Assistance. A helpful word. Advice. He wasnt there. I didnt understand why. He was there for others. Why not me. Even for those that hurt me and caused me to be in the situation I was dealing with, but not for me. It hurt me so bad. It stained my soul. I saw signs that he was like me before this particular instance, but I justified the things I heard and the actions I witnessed. It became so unignorably evident that I had no choice but to confront it. To correct it. To make my role model perfect again. I set out on a mission to reperfect the perfect. To remove the flaw from the infallible. It would be easy and simple. My logic was undeniable. The truth irresistable. So I sat out on my mission. My intentions were pure. I knew nothing could go wrong. I set out to fix the unbroken. However the more I tried to fix my perfect role model, the more his flaws were exposed. The more imperfections were brought to light. How could this happen? I brought the right tools for the job. Undeniable truth. Undeniable logic. I just dont understand where I went wrong. Then one day. Someone perfect spoke to me and asked me a simple question. Is any man perfect? Without spot or blemish? The answer was simple to me, but I really didnt understand the question. Then I heard the question repeated but in a different connotation. Has there ever been anyone who walked this earth who has been perfect? Without spot or blemish? I am a christian, so the answer was simple. But, I still did not understand the question. What does this have to do with me and my role model situation. Then it struck me. There was a part in my Bible that talked about all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. Then I thought for a moment. If this is true then how do I find a suitable role model. After all, no one could live up to my standard of perfection after remembering that!!!! Now, I became angry. I felt like a fool. This whole time I have been focusing on a perfect role model who was really not perfect. This burned me up. I was so angry with him. How could he mislead like this? I felt so betrayed and deceived. Then I realized something. I started remembering more and more and more about what I had read in my Bible. I realized a harsh reality. One that shook my spirit. I had become an idoltar. That is a word I never really would have ever applied to myself. After all, I read the Word of God everyday. I say my prayers, pay my tithes and go to church every Sunday. I worship to, pray to and give all the glory to God. How could this be? How could this happen? Then I realized something. Christ is my role model. The only perfect being that has ever walked this earth. Without spot or blemish. A role model. The only role model. Who could live up to my expectation of perfection. Who would never let me down. Who would always be there. Waiting for me in the Word. The Living Word. He is always available. No time restraints. Always patient. Loving. Caring. And most of all, he will never let me down. He will never look human. Flawed. Imperfect. He will be the perfect role model all the time. He will never let me down or fail to live up to my expectations. Always living up to His Word. Once I came to this realization I never looked up to anyone that was just as imperfect as me. I look up to heaven for my help. For my guidance. For my strength. I look to the Word, for my knowledge. Understanding. Wisdom. I look to Jesus for love. Understanding. Kindness. Gentleness. If I want my needs to be met in a Godly ways, I look to God. He will never let me down. He will never disappoint. And he is always there. Always available. Always on time. When it all comes down to it. It is you and the Word. And the Word is a great comforter. I thank God for being a God that has no respect for person or title. That allows the rain to fall on the just and the unjust alike. A God who sent His son to die for me, yet while I was in sin. A God that does not know any partiality. A God that loves the sinner as much as the saint and that will leave the ninety nine to be there to save the one. If you want a role model. Someone to look up to. Look to heaven. Let it be God. People will disappoint and hurt you, especially those you are close to or least expect. God is the only one that is guaranteed to be there for you. People are great to talk to but God is the only one with the answers. He is a couselor. A comforter. A confidant. A healer. A provider. A caring shepherd. A friend who sticks closer than a brother and you are always his favorite. His motives and feeling are always pure and unbiased. He knows you better than anyone else and will judge you justly. If you are expecting this from any man you need to do what I did. Pull out His Word and pray. And pray for the one that hurt you, the one that made you realize this and learn to focus on God and not man. At the end of the day. When every thing is said and done. Friends are great. Support is wonderful. But my help comes from the Lord. When it comes down to it, it is you and the Word. No one is going to bring you through your circumstances but God. Not your pastor, not your mom, not your dad. The Word will deliver you. It is always available. Be there for others with the Word if you want to be there for them. That is the only thing that is guaranteed to fix anything. It saved my life and continues to save me in every situation. I can trust the Word 100% even through a flawed vessel. Dont let mans flaws take your focus off of God. No matter who the man is or what he was to you. I got a new role model. Actually he was the old one, the original one. There is but one Judge, one lawgiver and one forgiver of sins!!! Trust in the Lord!!!
Posted on: Sat, 20 Dec 2014 17:42:35 +0000