INSERT 50 I was devastated,worried,sad and buried alive.I had no back up.Only time was going to determine who was I gonna be.I slept without even praying.I woke up early in the morning my body was used into waking up at 6am.so everyday I would.I woke up felt my head was heavy,my eyes swollen.I needed comfort,I needed to hear someone say Its gonna be okay.I decided to give Siya a morning call. Siya:heeey baby...evakala esebuthongweni. Me:morning luv ulele njani? Siya:lelekakuhle baby,wena? Me:nam bby qha ey ndineendaba ezimbi umsebenzi uphelile izolo ndalahla naloo mali yomrholo.(Ndatsho sendifixiza)y is everything going so wrong baby? Siya:shhhhh baby pliz dont cry Aya.Kuzolunga standwa sam its just a curve baby believe me uThixo has plans for you.Please be strong malv ndiyakcela dont stress yourself cingela nalo mntu umthweleyo. . .I could hear his concerned and caring voice comforting me. Me: ohh ok baby,Thanks Ill try. Siya:Please do Mandungwane.So do you need anything? Me:hayi baby ndiseryt dont worry. Siya:ndicelundixelele ungandifihleli ke xa kukho into oshoda ngayo ndizozama nam kuloo nto ingekhoyo.and sendizobuya nam kwezi veki zizayo.Hlala phantsi ucinge yintoni onoyenza so long vah? Me:ewe baby Ill do that. Siya:ndiyakuthanda kakhulu Aya I pray ube right marn ndibhlungu nyhani. Me:sho babe,luv u too. Yoooh yayindixolisa ke la mambane kakuhle ndandive ndizive amaxhala am onke ephelile.Ndahlala ke kulo ndlu ndicinga ukuba ndiza kwenza kanjani.I came up with a plan yoba mandilinde ndide ndibeleke then I can look for another job kakuhle.and mandivele ndigoduke ezi mpahla zam ndizigcinise kooP.K (ubhuti wam lo wayendifumanele le ndawo yokuhlala).Xa kuqalinyanga kuDecember ndavuka ndalungiselela ukugoduka ngaloo mini.Ndavalelisa eMount Frere edolophini ndayotshona ezilalini.Ngaloo mini ndandigibele kwivan yomnye ubhuti owaziwa ngoba nguSgogoi.USgogo sikhule evana kakhulu nabazali bam engumntu nje owayehleli esivakatshela endlini wayesithi Tatomncinci kuTata athi Momncinci kuMama thina aze athi nomdade ukusibiza.Ndicinga nale nto yezi nkomo.Ndamncokolela yonke imeko ubhuti oooh wakhathazeka nangale yomsebenzi ngoba wayeqhelukundibona pha.Watsho esithi Mna Madiya andinakwastress iinkomo zikatamncinci ndingahlala nazo futhi nani nakudinga into thethani nam ndakuninceda xa ndinendlela ningade nilambe ngathi akusenamntu unikhathaleleyo endingayivumi ke mntakwethu yile yokuba mazithengiswe,hayi sanuzithengisa kuworse zonke ngaxeshanye akunawulunga.Kaloku nangoku uMomncinci ubengazithengisi ezi nkomo zazishiywe ngumyeni wakhe ubeyazi ukuba uzibekele ntoni noske nixabane nabo ke ngoku ngoba bayabona yonke into belele pha.Thetha qha wena nabantu abadala ubaxelele ukhona umntu ongakugcinela kunjalo nje awuzukhupha nesenti nam ndifuyile pha.Sisuke senze ibhekile sixhele nenkukhu sazise abaya uba iinkomo ziya ngaphi. Hayi ke ndabulela kakhulu wathi rhuthu iR100.Ndabulela kakhulu enyinto inoba wabethwa nalusizi kuba ndandikhala kuyo yonke le ntetha phoff sithethela emotweni yakhe.Ndandikhathazekile marn.Ngenene zange ndiphozise maseko ndaphinde ndaya ekhayakhulu ndayochaza.Bavumela phezulu ke abantu abadala kuba besithi uSgogo ukhulele aphekhaya koko kungakuhle kakhulu uba zinokuya kuye ababoni nto iWrongo.So we all decided to do the ceremony kwangaloo weekend ngeCawa nazo iinkomo zehliswe kwangala mini.Yahamba kakuhle yonke into.Ndashiyeka ndipholile kwicala leenkomo.Sasinayo indawo exabana oko ngoku sinoSiya phoff sixatyaniswa nguFacebook most of the time.Nam ndinesikhwele esi sibi sifuna kuthiwe baby kum ndodwa ngoku yena uvele atsho kuthi sonke hayi andiyingenanga ke leyo.Ndizibalela noba kaloku andisebenzi ngoku inoba lo undibalela iMaths pha entloko yakhe.Wabuya uSiya pha kwii13 zikaDecember.Wehlika weza endlini ngosuku olulandela olo wayebuye ngalo.Engeright marn ndingenamona waske wangathi ube nayo nentombi.Insecurities zema ngeenyawo.But we managed to make our time countable.Wabe endiqinisekisa umntu wam uba ndisahamba phambili,ndisesemagqabini ndim uMadam.Oh well naye he was still Prince.There was no man that would take his place no matter what the circumstances were.Wahlala 2days.Ndambalisela iAntenatal Class yam inge17 which was on a Monday and he promised to accompany me ndimfonele qha xa ndisuka ekhaya sodibana etown.Ndingevuyi marn ndizokhe ndikhatshwe xa ndiya eclinic ndihambe noYise kamntwani nam njengabanye.Like kum yayingenavalue so much into yohamba nePartner xa uya eClinic ngaphezulu ndandingayiboni intle naxa seyisenziwa ngomnye umntu coz mostly mna ndandidla ngokubona aba bhuti baziintshayi kungabo abakhaphe aba sisi bamnyama baneePurse eziLemon neziRed ufike bezixwayile ke aba bhuti honestly I did not find it attractive call me behind if you think am aout of fashion.Ndandivuyiswa nje kuba lo wam ebonakalisa inkathalo.Yafika iMonday ndavukela ndaya eGateway.Ndamfonela uSiya pha koo10 kwaphendula umntu okobude ubuthongo ulibele kwaloo nto kodwa besithethile ngayo izolo.Mnfxim uyandtyhafisa ke ngoku caba andizumbona kwamna namhlanje xa esalele nangoku.Clinic yahamba kakuhle kwathiwa next month ndiyabeleka and bandinika nedate emandize ngayo ekufutshane which was in the beginning of January so they can arrange for idate yam yokubeleka ndingalindi ndide ndilunywe since ndibeleka ngomthungo.Hayi ke ngoku ndizothini na ukuvele ndibeleke next month ndingenayo necent kaloku mna ndandizibalela pha kooApril.Ndincedwe yimali yegrant yaba babini kwaukuba ndikwazi ukufudumeza pha ekhaya.Phoff ke nakweli ithuba uThixo wolakha icebo.USiya ndandingakwazi kucela mali kuye like ndandimonqena phoff ndandingayidingi kakhulu uba ndingade ndiyicele ubomi basezilalini bulula nhoko.Ndamfonela ukuphuma kwam pha uSiya wathi usekwaShinta,mnfxim ndahamba ndaziyela ezivenini andizulinda loo nto mna.Loo December wayexakeke kakhulu uSiya wam nasefonini enqabile.Abantwana bakamama babekhona sihleli sonke noKanyi.UThando zange ndiye kuyomlanda ndandicinga ukuba ndizomsokolisa nje umntwana.Ndothuswa yicall kaSiya nge30 kaDecember kalo yayise idibana kwiInbox kafacebook iicalls zingamapolisa amaChina. Me:hey Siya:hey lov,unjn na? Me:ndirite wena? Siya:ndirite nam luv.Jonga bby Id like to apologise for unqaba kangaka ndibanjwe ziitshomi and kalo aba bantu andibaboni phakathi konyaka ndibabona kube kanye qha,yabo? Me:owww . . .ngenkanikazi. Him:But Ill make it up to you.Ndicela iNew Years Eve siyiSpende soy2.Uze apha ekhaya ngomso.Ill be home alone,uthanda njani? Me:hayi ndsazokhe ndicinge ...uba ukhe uyibone iHippo xa iqumbile haybo uvela phi nalo waske wathi gqi seExcited mpaaa!but deep down yayimandi le nto ayitshoyo. Siya:hayibo bby khayekuba funny pliz.ndicelulungise kusasa ndyakucela love. Me:okay. Siya:I love you Me:Sho. Eeeh hyazi uyandidika loo khangandihoye oko efikile uzothi gqi sendikhawulezIsela.Kwacacuba wonke umntu uya kwiNew Year apha endlini uKanyi akanamntu azohlala naye ndazincama ndalala ndifonele uMakazi waseMacwerheni ukuba bandijongele uKhanyi,wavuma. Ndavuka ekuseni ndamkhapha saya eMampondweni ndamshiya ndaHikela from there to kwaShinta oko ndandise ndimelwe nguSiya asking about my whereabouts.Kwanetha ndisesendleleni ndaqonda xa esithi sehleli yedwa ndizayozingenela noba akandikhawulelanga.Ndafona sendisekamereni yakhe wethuka loo nto weza wathi ubesabukele itv kwenye indlu.Ndafika phaa ngoo3 emalanga.Wafika wandibelezela wandikhulula ezi mpahla bendizinxibile zinethiweyo nam sendidunyelwe kuqala ndilibele ngazo zonke iintsizi zam nokunqaba kwakhe. Siya:bby kunini ndikukhumbula ...watsho endidlalisa izidlele. Me:Nam nje bendikukhumbula ...I gave a smile along. Siya:Come here...ndandisendifunwa amalungelo ke ngoku zandibe saphozisa maseko oku kwam saphana kwamnandi.Mva koko saphakama wathi masiye ngqo pha kwiMain house for Supper and TV.Wabe esithi his younger brother has invited his friends they will be celebrating the New Years Eve pha endlini even though yena uSiya is not part of it but if i want us,me&him, to join them we can.Ndiqonda ndonqena nabantu kwesi sisu sam,I rejected.Sagqiba ukutya.Sabukela iGenerations omnibus sigonene kungemnandi kum kusegcibhala.Sahlala ke sikuloo way yethu yoncamathelana.Phandle kwakuvakala uba kuyalungiselelwa ngoba nomculo wawusewconnected but they were doing their thing in the Garage but I wasnt interested to even go there.Salinda kwade kwabetha u12 saExchangea ezo hugs&kisses sobabini aphendlini.Saqondendlini yolala.IHappy New year kwakunyanzelekile ibekhona nakanjani :p.In the morning, breakfast was served in bed.Ndakhe ndayiQueen after quite some time.My baby had still promised me he is still mine only akafuni nova ngam.Well we slept together nange2nd ndagoduka nge3 ngoo10 wandikhapha wayondifikisa etown.Ndayoqala ngomntana eMampondweni ke mna ndasoske ndalala kuba kwakungekho nto indiyingxameleyo ekhaya.It stroke my mind...should I be worried about Siya or just relax and take his word? which appeared as if it was against his actions..
Posted on: Mon, 05 Jan 2015 11:50:36 +0000
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