IT SAY WHAT ON YOUR MIND AS ALWAYS, IT NEVER CHANGES, I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE HERE THAT IS EXTREMELY PERSONAL, BUT REALL AND HONEST!!!!!!!!!!! AND PRAY IF SOMEONE EVER FIND;S THEMSELVES IN THE POSITION I HAVE BEEN IN THIS PAST WEEK, THIS WILL ENCOURAGE YOU AND GIVE YOU HOPE, THAT GOD CARES. PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME KNOW THAT I HAVE WAGED A WAR AGAINST INCREDIBLE ODDS OF LOTS OF ILLNESSES, DIED, HOSPITALISED AT LEAST EVERY 7 WEEKS FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS, HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO LEAVE MY HOUSE FOR AT LEAST 8 MONTHS, FROM THE PAIN, I ENDURED DAY AND NIGHT, WHILST GOING THROUGH JUST THIS ONE BATTLE, STAYING ALIVE, I HAVE BEEN UNDER ENORMOUS PRESSURE AND STRESS, FOR A VERY LONG TIME, AND AM SOLE AND FULLY RESPONSIBLE FOR MY CHILDREN, AND OTHERS I TAKE IN. REGARDLESS OF MY CONDITION, AS MY CONDITION IS RAPIDLY DETERIOATING WAITING FOR A SPECIAL ROOM IN THE PRIVATE HOSPITAL TO UNDERGO MORE ROUNDS OF TREATMENT, THEN AN OPERATION THEY WANT TO DO THAT COULD LEAVE ME A QUADRAPLEGIC, DEAD, PLUS A LONG LIST OF THINGS THAT DO GO WRONG. I WAS IN ALOT OF TURMOIL INSIDE AS THE DOCTORS WERE SAYING YOU HAVE TO HAVE IT. I CARRIED THIS BURDEN WITH ALL THE OTHER STRESSORS IN MY LIFE FOR QUITE SOME TIME AND TOLD VERY FEW, WHAT IM ABOUT TO BE FACING ALL OVER AGAIN. IN BETWEEN ALL SUFFEED A GREAT DEAL OF LIFE EVENTS, THAT I DIDNT HAVE TIME TO THINK ABOUT,. JUST KEEP GOING AND PRAY FOR EVERYTHING WAS MY ONLY WAY OF SURVING. I LIVE WITH SOMETHING THAT CAN KILL ME ANY DAY ANY NIGHT WE NEVER KNOW WHEN OR IF IT WILL HAPPEN, AND HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO EAT BECAUSE OF THIS INOPPERABLE SITUATION I HAVE. LAST SATURDAY, AT 3 AM IN THE MORNING TO MY SONS SHOCK WHAT I HAD BEEN WARNED OF TOOK PLACE, WHICH MEANT TO ME HOURS TO LIVE. MY SON JUST RAN OUT OF THE HOUSE LOL AS WHAT HE WITTNESSED WASNT GOOD, I HAD TWO CHOICES TO MAKE THAT DAY, DIE IN HOSPITAL OR STAY HOME, I CHOSE HOME WITH MY KIDS, AFTER I GOT OVER THE SHOCK WE LAUGHED WE JOKED , WE HAD FUN, I WAS BEDRIDDEN, BUT ABOVE ALL THE PRESENCE OF GOD IN MY ROOM WAS GREAT AND THE PEACE OF GOD WAS ALL I COULD FEEL I WAS TOTALLY HAPPY AND AT PEACE WITH WHATEVER WAS ABOUT TO TAKE PLACE. THE PRESENCE OF GOD DID NOT LEAVE MY ROOM THE WHOLE DAY THE PEACE DID NOT LEAVE FOR A SECOND, I HONESTLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING HOME, ALL THE PHYSICALL SYMPTOMS CONFIRMED, I DIDNT HAVE LONG, BUT HAD SUCH INCREDIBLE PEACE I DIDNT CARE, I WAS STILL HERE ON PLANET EARTH AS WAS ALONE NEAR THE END OF THE PAIN AS TOO SICK TO BE WITH ANYONE, I WAS JUST WRAPPED IN GLORY, GOD PUT ME TO SLEEP, WHEN I WOKE UP, EVERYTHING WAS GONE, THE PAIN THE DISTORTIAN OF MY ENTIRE STOMACH, EVERYTHING, GOD OUTRIGHT HEALED ME COMPLETELYA AND DID THE IMPOSSIBLE, I COOKED TEA THAT NIGHT, STILL IN THE GLORY OF GOD, AND TOOK ME DAYS TO GET MY HEAD AROUND WHAT JESUS HAD DONE FOR ME, I DIDNT EVEN ASK HIM HE JUST TURNED UP, THEN AFTER ANOTHER WEEK OF NO SLEEP EXTREME PAIN FINANCIAL PRESSURE, ACTUALLY STRESS COMING FROM ALL ANGELS POSSIBLE, I FINALLY BROKE, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALONG TIME, I HIT THE GROUND A FULL MENTAL EMOTIONAL AND PHYSICALL BREAKDOWN THEY CALL IT, I COULDNT MOVE I COULDNT SIT I COULDNT SLEEP I COULDNT STAND, I WAS NOT ONLY PHYSICALLY UNABLE TO FUNCTION, BUT MENTALLY EVERYTHING, THE STRESS HAD CAUGHT UP, I JUST STAYED IN BED FOR DAYS, AS COULDNT MOVE COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY BROKEN TO PIECES, LIKE NEVE BEFORE IN MY LIFE THE HELL WAS SO GREAT DIDNT SLEEP FOR DAYS, STILL CANT STAND IN A SHOWER SO I STINK, CAN YOU SMELL ME FROM WHERE YOU ARE. I ASKED LORD TAKE ME HOME, IM DONE I CANT TAKE ANYMORE AS KNOW I FACE A MAJOR COURT BATTLE ON THE 4TH OF FEB, THEN TREATMENT AGAIN ON THE TENTH, 7DAYS OF TORTURE THAT IS, I WAS SO INTERANALLY EXHAUSTED AND BROKEN, I COULDNT EVEN THINK, I STAYED LIKE THAT FOR DAYS IN BED, JUST UNABLE TO EVEN HOLD MY BODY UP, KNEW I NEEDED TO BE BACK IN RAMSAY HOUSE BUT COULDNT GO WITH EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I KNEW I HAD TO DO, I COULDNT STOP CRYING , WHICH I NEVER DO, I WAS AN ABSOLUTE WRECK OF A SHELL OF A HUMAN BEING, I DIDNT CARE IF I LIVED OR DIED BY THIS POINT, DIDNT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING JUST WANTED TO GO HOME TO JESUS, I HAD THIS COMPEELING FEELING TO OPEN FACEBOOK, RENEE WHO HAS AN AMAZING TESTIMONY OF GODS HEALING HAD WRITTEN ABOUT IT ON MY PAGE, FOR SOME REASON I WAS ABLE TO READ THE WHLE THING, WHICH WITH NO CONCENTRATION, HARDLY ANY VISION, A MIRACLE IN ITSELF, HOW I EVEN HELD THE LAPTOP I DONT KNOW AS THE BODY HAD SHUT DOWN COMPLETELY, SHE SAID ONE THING THAT JUMPED OF THE PAGE TO ME, DECLARE JESUSS HEALING OVER YOUR LIFE SAY IT IGNORE HE DOCTORS IGNORE WHAT THE BODY IS DOING JUST SAY IT OUT LOUD, WELL BEING UNABLE TO SPEAK, THAT WAS AN IMPOSSIBLE TASK,I LAY IN THE BED ALL NIGHT JUST SAYING IT IN MY HEART I REFUSE TO HAVE A BREAKDOWN AND AM HEALED BY JESUS AND STRONG IN JESUS, A DAY LATER, WHICH IS TODAY, ALL BROKENESS IS COMPLETELY GONE I CAN STAND, I CAN SIT I CAN SPEAK NOT MUCH, BUT ZERO BROKENESS, IN THAT NIGHT GOD PUT ALL THE PIECES OF ME BACK TOGETHER, IN ONE NIGHT, THEN TO MY AMAZEMENT FILLED ME WITH MORE JOY THAN EVER BEFORE, TOOK EVERY BURDEN AND STRESS FROM ME AND SAID JUST REST IN ME, I CAN ACTUALLY TYPE WITHOUT MY ARMS COLLASPING, IN THE SPACE OF 10 DAYS MY KING MY LORD MY GOD MY MOST BELOEVED HEAVENLY FATHER DID THE GREATEST HEALING OF MY LIFE, I HAVE ONLY WITTNESSED HIM DO ONCE BEFOR WHEN IN HOSPITAL WITH LESS THAN AN HOUR TO LIVE. GOD DOES PUT YOU BACK TOGETHER GOD DOES HEAL THE IMPOSSIBLE GOD DOES EXSIST PERIOD, I NOW TODAY AM A NEW CREATION IN MY LORD, FOR IN THAT TIME OF WHERE THERE ZERO OF ME LEFT, HE WORKED ON ME, AND NEVER LEFT ME, GOD DOES HEAL A BROKEN PERSON AND DOES IT FOR ME IN ONE NIGHTI DIDNT ASK HIM TO HE JUST DID IT,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY IM A WALKING MIRACLE OF THE POWER OF GODS HEALING LOVE AND IM GOING TO CRY HERE, THE VERY FACT THAT WHAT HE SAYS HE DOES DO, !!!!!!!!!!!!! NO ONE KNEW I TOLD NO ONE EXPECT MY KIDS NEW I WAS CRITICAL, WHEN YOU BEAK ON THE LEVEL I DID, NO DOCTOR ON EARTH CAN FIX THAT, YET GOD HAS NOW FILED ME WITH MORE JOY MORE LOVE MORE UNDERSTANDING, MUCH GREATER INTAMICY WITH HIM, AND FILLED MY HEART MY MIND MY SOUL COMPLETELY WITH HIS STRENGTH AND HIS STRENGTH, ALONE, I DONT USUALLY DO THIS BUT WANT TO SHARE A VERY POWERFUL TESTIMONY OF AMAZING GRACE, FOR ANYONE WHO IS BROKEN I CAN PROMISE YOU THIS GOD CAN AND WILL PUT YOU BACK TOGETHER BETTER THAN YOU EVER WERE, ALL I CAN DO IS STAND IN AWE OF OUR AMAING LORD AND GIVE HIM ALL THE GLORY HE SO DESERVES, I DID NOTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD DID EVERYTHING, GOD HEALS PEOPLE GOD HEALS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLAIM ITS YOURS THERE FOR THE TAKING, SAY IT DECLARE IT EVERYDAY OVER YOUR LIFE, FOR IM TELLING YOU THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH, GODS WORD IS LIVING POWERFUL, BREATHING LIFE TO EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY, GLORY THE MIGHTIEST KING GLORY AND PRAISE TO OUR HEALER NAMED JESUS, GOD DOES HEAL, NEVER GIVE UP HOPE, IVE WAITED 6YRS OF HELL FOR GOD TO HEAL ME STILL NOT DONE YET, BUT NOT A DAY WILL GO BUT NOT AND HOUR WILL GO BUY WHERE I WILL NOT PROCALIM GODS PROMISES OVER MY LIFE AS I KNOW BELIEVE I KNOW TO THE CORE OF MY BEING THEY ARE THE ONLY TRUTH WE SHOULD TELL OURSELVES, AND HIS PROMISE OF FULL HEALING I DECALRE IN JESUS NAME HAS JUST BEGUN IN ME, AND WILL BE COMPLETED, BY GOD HIMSELF, BELIEVE RECIEVE WHAT YOU READ IN THE BOOK OF LIFE, FOR IT IS LIFE AND IS THE ONLY REALL TRUTH THERE IS, I PRAY EVERYONE WHO I KIND ENOUGH TO READ THIS WILL SHOUT TO GOD WITH PRAISE, FOR HE IS THE KING WORTHY OF THE HIGHEST PRAISE, I HOPE THE HEAVENS RING TONIGHT AS PEOPLE READ THIS AND JUST PRAISE HIM FOR HE HAS JUST DONE FOR HIS CHILD, JUST IN A BED ALONE WITH HIM, NO BIG HELING REVIVAL NOT EVEN HAVING TO LEAVE MY BED OR EVEN ASK, GOD JUST HEALED OUTRIGHT, NO BIG PRAYER MEETING JUST ME AND JESUS, AND I COULDNT PRAY, WAS WAY BEYOND THAT, CAPABILITY, JESUS HEALS UNCONDITONALLY WITH OUT A HEAP OF WHO HA, HE WILL COME TO YOU WHEN YOUR ALONE AND SO BROKEN DOWN YOU CANT MOVE, JESUS WILL COME TO YOU HIMSELF, PRAISE GOD, THIS NEEDS TO BE TOLD, FOR MY GOD SHALL BE GLORIFIED FOREVER, AND EVER AND EVER, I LOVE YOU LORD AND THANKYOU JUST ISNT ENOUGH FOR WHAT YOU HAVE JUST DONE FOR ME, IM PURE PROOF GOD EXSISTS IM LIVING BREATHING PROOF GOD HEALS, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
Posted on: Mon, 20 Jan 2014 11:03:17 +0000