Id be lying if I said this life I live doesnt scare me...the pressure I put on myself to succeed...Im all in on this career but theres alot of stress because Ive taken a huge risk...no money is promised to me and everything I earn I must create...I work long hours, many of which Im not paid...Ive neglected relationships, lost touch with friends, and not even taken the time necessary to build a home life...no wife, no gf, no kids, and Ill be 30 at the end of the month...call it a midlife crisis, call it self recognition...where did the time go? I have thousands of fans that I consider family but at the end of the day Im for the most part alone...my art has given me a purpose but at what cost? Do I slow down and try to obtain more of the little things that Ive missed out on in life? Or am I so close to reaching the pinnacle that I need to smash the peddle and continue going all out? These are the thoughts that are inside my head...these are the reflections I put into my music...the more pain I put myself through, the better the art I create...one of the most common things my fans mention to me is that my music is real, almost like Ive taken their exact lives and placed them within a melody...Im a person just like you, I go through the same things, and I panic when I think about the future. I know theres a greater purpose for the things Ive gone through in life, figuring them out is the constant challenge. There are many things Ive yet to let go of, many things that haunt me daily. Theres no redos, theres no fresh starts. Theres only living in the moment and living every minute, one by one, to the best of my ability. If I never reach the level in my career that Ive dreamt of achieving, then Ill know on my final day that I gave it every last ounce of effort I had. Although this life may not be what my mother and father wanted for me, I know when they pass that theyll be proud to know they raised a man who never gave up. Im alot like them in that way, be it hard headed, or hard working, I was raised that way. So where do I go from here? Forward. I dont have any other choice. No options, no fall backs. Music is me, I am music. Whats the number 1 thing I want to achieve with my career? I want to be iconic for leading a movement promoting positivity, hard work, and resilience. #BlueCollar
Posted on: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 08:31:47 +0000
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