If I could choose to live without one thing, without any one thing, Id choose to not have emotions. For certain things Im happy to be alive and I love life. For other things I want to die slowly in the most painful and gruesome way I can. If only I could announce to the world what I actually am feeling but Im scared of the reactions Ill get and the judgements Ill receive. I wish I could not care about what other people think about me, but words eat away at me and I take most things to heart when I hear them said to me unless I know for a fact the person is joking. I just... I wanna let everything out but if I do that a couple things that are all equally terrifying could happen. 1)I become a blank slate and most things start to affect me greater. 1)I become void of most emotions like a lot of people I know and life not caring about anything. Or 3) Nothing changes. I just let everyone know how I feel about everything and all I get is a bunch of heartless Im sorry or some other thing and my mind remains cluttered with my current emotions.... I hate life.
Posted on: Mon, 05 Jan 2015 03:39:01 +0000
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