If anyone is trying to reach me on fb or on my phone u cant cause my boyfriend is in jail n he has it at the jail with him im sorry n i dont want people to think something bad happened to me i went to the hospital n i have a throat viral infection i went two days ago my husband shawne beyette was by my side n even took me back to were im staying at we talked n cryed he knows were im coming from n i know we r good shawne tk u for being thier for me i know its been hard on u n i am sorry for that u mean the world to me it hasnt been real easy on me either even though u dont think i care about r marriage i do really im tired of being hurt by your crazy exs n them comin inbetween r marriage this is my first marriage n its scary to me i dont know what to do when im cornered but fight like hell for whats mine n what i want to do the rite way n when someone tells me i cant this time im to tired to fight back u told me im a strong woman how come i dont feel that strong i feel that your exs defeated me n powerless i should be the queen of marriage n castle n im not i only wanted to be luved n be apart of a family that i never had growing up i am not using that as a excuse by no means i just want a better life then i had n what my kids had thats all i know i couldnt give my kids the best things in life like a father i never had but i did a hell of a good job doing it on my own n others may say otherwise they werent thier my kids whole life n they dont know shit as far as im concerned n the same applies to me n u shawne ppl dont know what me n u went threw together n what we r going threw know what ever choices i have made rite or wrong i felt at the time was the rite choice it may not make sense but thats how i felt i wear my heart on my sleeve i cant help it god made me this way n when my heart is out thier i hurt badly n i run away ask my stepdad david when im hurt upset or afraid that another man will fail me i run away im afraid of being abandoned by another male figure or be hurt by the man i luv u see no man since i was born ever cared for me they lied beat me n even worse things to me n when i got pregnant n older it got worse for me the worse part is my mother n what she did to me all my life then take my kids away from me falsely but my family will say im wrong n i was a bad mother its nice to know my family never wanted me to be born n deal with convicks cons liers abusers n the list goes on n everyone of my friends n my husband wants me to be that strong tough woman everyone luvs n adores i am still hear but my heart is breaking knowin i really dont have anyone by my side everyone is greety n selfish n only think of them selves i want my life back which god will set me free anyone that knows me nows what i want n how i want to only be happy once in my life before i die n i know its a sin to be with another man i am n i feel bad that im married n i did that i cant change that all i ask is to forgive me n forgive what i have sinned on mx marriage my vows my husband my family my kids my friends my boyfriend n every person on this earth i truely never ment to hurt anyone i luv u all n god bless
Posted on: Sat, 05 Oct 2013 11:09:42 +0000
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