If the group doesnt mind.... I would like to vent/ testify. I am not perfect. I used to always wonder why my relationships never last, why I cant find that true love.. 2006, I met Kaylas dad. I thought he was single, but married. Even with that knowledge I still continued and we planned to have a child. 7yrs now I am a single parent. 2008. Met my ex fiancé. ( can I call it that) He was separated yet still married. For a year and a half I was physically abused... Since.... No relationship Ive ever attempted at lasted. Reasons. Cheating. Being used. Lies. Nothing that isnt pleasing in Gods sight will be blessed. No matter how much you pray, how hard you go, wrong is wrong. People wonder why I am so hard to get close to now. Im not the same person I used to be. I didnt even know I was that person. It took years for me to grow up, find myself, my worth and who I am. Now that I have, I meet the very people I used to be. Is it Kharma? Am I too late? Do I want something so bad that Im allowing things to happen without seeing? I chose this plan( My Identity in Christ) because what defines me is finding someone who genuinely loves me. Not for my body, my looks, what I can and will do for him... I dont want to be that. I pray through this journey I truly find myself. I pray I get closer to Christ and find my true purpose. I am tired. I am weak. Im worn....
Posted on: Wed, 16 Jul 2014 03:11:56 +0000
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