Ill be honest. We have had some really dark hard times. Places where I have stood before God and said,I need answers. I cant continue the ways things are. I have obeyed you. I have had a yes spirit. I have been diligent. How come things are not lining up the way it is suppose to? Where are you? You are so silent! What have I done wrong? Have you --like me been there? Where that ugly spirit rears its head with a pharisee spirit which thinks if you obey the laws,everything will work out just fine? Speak it,believe it and it will come to pass? Have you ever just wanted to scream---No more!!!!!!!! Well, if you havent, please just stop reading right now and forgive me. I have been in a similar hole of confusion before and every time, The Lord has been very gracious and kind towards me. he has tenderly let me vent and held me ,wiping away my tears. He has proven over and over again that the journey has a reason and that He does hear me. So---- by now, I should know better,right? Well---- As I have been going through a drama the past few weeks, it has taken awhile for my confession of disappointments to line up with the Spirit, who never lies to me. As I wait for my flesh to line up to Gods desire and destiny for me, I choose to WILL my spirit to align to His Spirit. The fruit of the Spirit (love,joy,peace,forbearance,kindness,goodness,faithfulness,gentleness, and self-control) which seems non-existent right now is still part of my spiritual DNA!!!! When we walk with the Spirit, we have wisdom in recognizing lies of the enemy. He wants to dictate what sounds like truth but is totally lies to overtake our abundance in Christ. Right now,I have all the fruit within me and I have chosen to walk in His purity and obey with faith, but to say,my flesh feels good? yum---not yet, but I am getting there. That little orphan in me still has a real strong voice. I recognize it really well and I keep reminding her that she was crucified along with the rest of me. We are not orphans anymore!!!! I remind her again that all of me( she included) consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Jesus. I live and breath in Him and for Him! In Him, I live and move and have our being. Life has its bleak and bare mountains, but He is the Father who leads us to the green pastures. Not quite grazing on the green pastures yet, but I am not standing still in my sorrow. I am pressing forward. I can smell the green meadow and hear the quiet waters---- Walk on, walk on!!!!!! lets not dwell on I am not but dwell on He is.
Posted on: Tue, 01 Jul 2014 01:04:14 +0000
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