Im cleansing out my friend list before the move.... If I have not interacted with you, in 6-12 month, but tried.....I am letting go. Many people we met in new circles, many old circles that are just feeling like strange residue. If you inspire me, encourage me, make me laugh, or just have a quirky aspect.....you are my friend for a reason. I used to quarterly trimmings, but stopped during the business era. Our business is growing, new leaders will emerge, but our physical presence being abroad means I get to subtly make more authentic decisions about my online and real life. Please do not comment keep me....Im only expressing thoughts in real time, not looking for a response. If you comment, you are one who interacts, inspires, comments, or likes something. I have this code of balance that my real life and online needs to stay that way. While Facebook is the least private of all the social media, the one all grandmas share with us and the ones our staff is on, I still try hard to make the experience as real as I can. I dont know any other way....that has pissed people off, alienated some, inspired others. We dont need to agree, just have a general enough interest in commenting once a year. And if you comment once a year, you comment a second time neutral or positive if its always a dissent, that gets old. I cant get the psychology of online or real life friends who only point out flaws in your views. It would seem you have simply drifted a bit into new territory. This year has been about births, and deaths. Beginnings and endings. Cycles that make me really sad, and really happy. Im alive. Im hanging in after a decade long battle. Im keeping it real as I can despite the propensity to layer status updates with bullshit or slivers of who we are. I care about this country, I care about the planet, I care about my family. I care most about continuing to study myself. When new relationships emerge during that growth it shows me I am growing and thats how new friendships begin. I frankly wasnt mature enough to have many friendships I do today. I was an off balance, hard to predict, good dude with big issues. Dec of 2011 I got a chance at life again. One year in the wild to find love, balance, and a desire to live. Not to give up. Im too old to hang on to things not right, and care too much about change to not keep my eyes focused on the future. Emotions today were the most intense yet. I could cry for hours, but there isnt time. Im leaving a mom who is mourning the loss of family.(even if geographical) I have seen and felt so much I cant begin to express it yet. Too close to the end, to lose it. This swift and sudden departure has made it TOUGH. Our code of life and desire to not give in to the easy job made it TOUGH. We could not slow down enough to absorb too much from others, as we waded into the storm to let the universe nudge us enough to know well come out so much stronger on the other side. Social media. It is what we make it. Soon, my journey will be largely off grid in terms of billboards, stoplights, ads, gossip, social circles, and loud noises. As hard as it is to say the word goodbye I know when I get there and balanced, Ill be smiling like the sailor the universe made me. Haters gonna hate.....friends gonna always be there. Ill say thank you to many people in a blog soon, and a Thank You to the city of Fayetteville and what our nearly two years has meant to me. Until then, sorting, packing, and trying to keep those blinders on.....
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 00:38:02 +0000
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