Im home now. Masque crossed the bridge about an hour ago. Her last moments were happy ones, exploring the vets table, climbing on my dad, saying hi to the receptionist. She was a friendly happy little girl. She went to sleep in the gas box without any distress or panic and I got to kiss her goodbye. I couldnt afford cremation so shell sleep in my deep freezer until my annual travel bonus in April. Then shell get a proper pretty urn so she can keep Daisy company. Im numb. All cried out. I just want to curl up in the dark and stop existing for a few hours. My brain knows I did the best thing for her, spared her a slow painful death as the tumour grew. But my heart still feels like I failed her somehow. Like I should have been able to save her. Houdini and Squidget already know somethings not right. Theyre just staring at me sadly from their pens. Next week Ill buy them each a new baby bitty to keep them company. Thank you, all of you, for being here Thank you all.
Posted on: Fri, 12 Dec 2014 02:22:58 +0000
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