Im in a very sensitive place right now... And it feels uncomfortable, kind of scary and completely humbling. Its been many many years since Ive experienced flare-ups from neuromuscular and systemic physical disorders. As many of you may know- about a decade of my life mid twenties to mid thirties was navigating through three near death experiences and having the full time job of learning magnificent self healing that still to this day amazes me. But Im not good right now. The last month has been quite shaky in my body, and a few days ago I had a real doozy... Re activating a torn meniscus injury, and having severe inflammation in my legs to the point that I cant walk more than about a block and cant go up or down steps or bend my knees at all with just my body weight. As I share this, a part of me feels shameful and angry. Another part of me feels lonely. Another part just wants to sleep all day until it gets better. Yet another part is just the observer. The truth is that I know that always all is well. The other truth is that my spirit is one of blaze and there are many admirable qualities about that as far as leadership and pioneering and yet, I also feel quite alone right now. And I dont really set myself up in life feel like I can actually receive. I still have an underlying belief that I can do it all on my own and even that its selfish to share as much as I just did in this post. Im letting that part just witness a new way... And Im not posting this for attention or to see how many likes can happen. Im posting as a social experiment with myself that I can still love and trust myself after sharing this. If you happen to still be reading, thank you for your time and attention. Sending love to all humans on this earth journey and asking for prayers of physical well being on mine 🙌 Namaste
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 16:53:44 +0000
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