Im learning that brokenness and something that needs to be healed or fix is subjective. With Tourettes I used to be (and often times still am) afraid of going out in public facing the disgusting grimaces and rude comments in reaction to my physical and vocal spasms. But recently I changed my outlook with the help of my loving mom. Having Tourettes isnt my problem: its theirs. And ironically the more I ignore the worlds lack of understanding and ignorance the fewer tics I have (but not that fixing my tics is necessary, the point, or that its something to be praised or celebrated because its not). Its just nice to have fewer tics than a lot. Let me make this very clear: having Tourettes is not a defect, a flaw, or a malfunction that needs to be fixed ... even though I do prefer to have fewer of them or none at all. For example, its absolutely ok to have sneezes but having few or none is preferred (although releasing that itchy nose irritation is a relief which is the same with releasing a tic). It does not mean that Im a hypocrite in asking the world to not fix me when it seems like Im trying to fix myself. The reason why I am making this clear is because the lack of understanding and the constant effort in trying to fix me exacerbates my tics even more. It is that mentality that I can sense therefore it causes more tension and anxiety for me which in turn, causing more tics. It is counterproductive. So why do it me or to anyone?
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 03:48:38 +0000
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