Im so angry that Im not sure how to frame my thoughts without offending a lot of good intentioned White folks who display their subtlety racially biased assumptions about people of color for no other reason than the arrogance of thinking that if it is White it is better and if it is Black it must be held with some level of suspicion. Every day of my life I cant even walk to get a cup of coffee without making sure I have ID and a business card just to prove Im worthy of living where I live and have the right to walk down the street. Everyday I deal with white people who approach and pass me with caution for no other reason than my race. But I did not almost bankrupt this country, I did not creat a mortgage crises, I did not start one war, I did not create gentrification and displace people because now I want the homes in their neighborhood, I did not creat a segregated school system, I do not underpay working families, I am not the reason 1% control most of the wealth because of greed. Yet for some reason there are white people who feel they have to protect themselves from me. People who despise my independance for not just doing what I am told for not being silent silent and just fitting in, even though no matter what I do, I will still be deemed not good enough nor an equal simply due to the color of my skin. It is assumed that I am not as smart, as talented, trust worthy or capable simple because I am Black. Tomorrow I will walk out of my home only desiring to make a positive contribution to society but I will be judged, looked over, or ignored because to some I am still a second class citizen because I am Black. I will watch people attempt to do simple and subtle things like cut in front of me in a line just because they assume they should be in front of me because I am Black and they are white. And they will still wonder why I am angry and why do I have to talk about race. Smh, I am emotionally and mentally fatigued. Yet again, I have to find a way to tell kids of color not to give up and keep trying, knowing they are looking at what is happening in this country and asking, why bother? Im not just referring to bias in the judicial system but in every sector of our society including churches and religious organization who say they believe in justice and equality even though all the people at the top look like them.
Posted on: Wed, 03 Dec 2014 23:22:42 +0000