Im tired of keeping everyones secrets . While I get thrown under the bus. I keep putting myself and children and back burning. I dont want that . I want all my kids and to raise them. I dont see any way thats possible. My kids dad belittle me mame me jump through hopes. Even she. I have them neither has ever paid me support. My mom died my dad smashed by semi my sister her vebalize my situation but dong even know whats up I dont even understand where they get off. Im done its time to recokonize. I dont care what I e done or am doing me and my kids reserve to be together. Not rely on drug dealers and car thiefts. I dont get welfare after this next month ever. So shat do I do. Dont tell me GEF a job I have only one mix with me and I missed two spots. My mental condition restricts me hella. My other to arent in cool situations do I take all my kids on the street and hope well have some where to go. Do I not fight for my dad and hope be understands . Cause any more defeating and her all abuse I think I might kill myself I cant self medicate enough not to feel any more Id rather be dead then feel what I feel to imagine what my kids and dad feel why cant we just be
Posted on: Sat, 22 Mar 2014 07:14:55 +0000