Im tired of keeping my mouth shut and pretending everythings ok when its not! So you think your a good parent figure? HUH? When after hours of pointing your finger hardly an inch from my face, screaming things at me like "Your that thing that has made my life so miserable", "Go kill yourself so everything can be smooth and peaceful again please" "Why do you have to be so different" (and the list goes on), and then go stand right in front of me pressing a butcher knife firmly against your throat, then run out with it, and disappear. What about that night hardly even 3 months ago when aunt rita, cousin gabby, and ken had to literally lock me in the car by myself and each one had to guard a door to keep you away from me, because you tried to beat the shit out of me, for no reason at all. And i just sat in the car watching out the windows crying my eyes out, and shaking in fear. What about That day i had to call 911 and had to clean up blood and see you and ken both go to jail and call my dad to come pick me and tish up because you guys were taken away. And what about that time in elementary school when you punched me in the mouth, and i was spitting out blood, and you didnt even care and sent me on my way. And that time you disappeared for a whole entire week and didnt tell nobody, and i was scared to death and couldnt sleep, so that you could run away secretly to tennesee and marry a guy who abused me as well. Well thats only 5% of what you have put me through. Im sick of always forgiving you and being so nice to you and never telling anyone what you put me through. I watch these families go by everyday, and these girls with their moms, and they have the greatest bond, and everything. and it makes me want to hide and cry. Because ill never know what thats like. atleast i have a good dad. the perfect dad. cuz if you were all i had, ide prolly done killed myself. i love you mom, always will, but you have put me through the hardest shit, and ill never forget it, and it still hurts, and i always fear whats gonna happen next. and its time i speak out about it. im sorry.
Posted on: Wed, 11 Sep 2013 07:08:17 +0000
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