In celebration of SGs 2nd Birthday here is letter number 2. (if you want to write a letter, please just email them to: [email protected]) ******************X****************** Dear Saying Goodbye, I write this letter to you in celebration of your second birthday. What a wonderful celebration is to be had! Two years of support, strength and hope. 1st December 2011 was the date that my twin daughters were delivered, at 37 weeks. Josephine was born healthy and well. Harriet was stillborn. Her little heart had stopped beating seven weeks before but Josephine needed me to carry them for as long as I could. Words will never be able to describe my journey. The despair, the confusion and the fear. It was my good friend Clare who asked me if I was aware of Saying Goodbye. Josephine was nine months old and I was at an all time low. Id had gallbladder surgery, I was depressed and I was doing everything in my power to keep grief at bay. I was a mess. Facing each day was a battle. I wanted my baby. I wanted my family complete. I knew my baby was dead but I didnt know what to do. Sunday October 28th October 2012, 3.30pm is an occasion firmly placed in my memory. My first Saying Goodbye service. It was during this service that I acknowledged and celebrated my baby daughters life. Months of silent grief, ignoring her existence and hiding my tears. You made it safe. You welcomed me, calmed me and told me it would be ok. I was lost in the most beautiful music. It held me tight, embraced me and allowed me to cry. Tears....real tears. The tears that make you blow your nose. From that day onwards Saying Goodbye became my strength....my backbone. The Facebook page, the tweets, the quotes. I relied on you, needed you and turned to you. You were always there. Somehow, the Saying Goodbye cathedral service had helped me to believe that I could cope. I could live. I could live without my baby. It was ok to cry. It was ok to grieve. Over the last eighteen months or so Saying Goodbye has become a huge part of my life. I have made a friend for life. Being an Assistant Fundraising Manager and raising awareness of the organisation is so important to me. I raise funds locally and cant wait to host one of the first Snow Balls in November. When my baby Harriet died, I felt that life had ended. Saying Goodbye has given me the strength to say, life has only just begun. Love Jess x
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 09:12:34 +0000
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