In memory of my Mom- Gloria Kyle- Cherod Poodles Seven years ago today at 2:05pm, the police were at my door to tell me that my Mom, who phoned me at 1 pm to tell me she was going for a drive with her friend, was killed in a car accident. How does one even take another breath or another step or have a single clear thought after losing the human who was their first love? I have not got a clue! You do because you have to. But she is never far from my thoughts. The ache will always be present in my heart. The desire to phone her and invite her for dinner or to the next dog show will be with me until I join her.The breech in our family is palpable with her not an active part of it. I still feel as though a part of my own body has been amputated. Every one of my puppies that safely enters this world makes it because of a lifetime of mentorship and training by my Mom. Every haircut I do is because she encouraged me from the age of six to pick up a brush, then pick up the clippers, then band a topknot, then scissor a pom pom. Every single aspect of my involvement of this breed is because of her. And every time I look at one of my beloved dogs and my heart melts...that is a legacy she and her parents before her left this family. The love of animals is in our blood. On this Thanksgiving weekend I give heartfelt thanks to God for 52 years being loved by a woman who was passionate, fiery, imperfect, affectionate, and happened to be the first human being I laid eyes on. I am grateful that she taught me that you do not have to be perfect to be worthy. That the most anyone can ask of you is that you do the best with the tools God gives you. That struggles are normal. That even when you feel unloved, it is important to keep loving fiercely. That there are plenty of times when your heart over rules your brain, and that is ok. So many lessons...so much passion...such a deep and real part of who I am. I love you Mom and miss you like crazy. Thank you for teaching me that we WILL meet again. And that it is ok to cry for your Mother seven years later.
Posted on: Sat, 11 Oct 2014 12:31:45 +0000