In some shit hole bar in St Paul many many years ago... I sat with an old drinking buddy doing what we used to do...DRINK! These days you wouldnt catch me in a bar and if you did I wouldnt be drinking Id be dancing....HA! Miracle in itself... That day though, my friend Valerie, dedicated this song to me. It didnt mean squat to me back then, not much else besides the drinking did. The song has stuck with me through the years. The memories of that day shine. It was a good drinking day for a couple of crazy drunk girls. Our lives had parallel circumstances, and pains we held onto. But as many good times as we had, bad times were sure to follow. We understood each other though. Where our lives were once parallel a sharp turn came when I went into recovery. As life does to some of us, it created a wall between us. Our last dealings with one another werent a pretty picture, and sadly we lost touch. Years later, Valerie took her own life. I think of her often. All the messed up stuff we put ourselves through, and got ourselves out of. The laughter in the pain, the sunshine in the dark of night. Mostly though the trust and understanding in the midst of the madness we created. Ive always thought she dedicated this to me as being about her, it never fit my idea of SELF. In my eyes, SHE has been the Unknown Legend as shes no longer with us, or is she? Today I listened and heard something else.... Colliding With The Very Air She Breathes As Im discussing some of my own personal blockages. This song used to resonate with me, I like the unknown part, and who doesnt want to be a legend? Im letting this go because it no longer suits me. It IS about me, its a way for me to see the answer to my questions staring at me. A sign from above maybe...a friend looking out and seeing clearer? Something Ive refused to see for YEARS! Yes Val YOU are the Unknown Legend....as for me....Ill be on that desert highway, preferably on chrome and steel...but without the COLLIDING with that that I NEED to live....I need now to learn to BREATHE it all in! To savor it like we used to savor those drinks!
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 20:03:23 +0000
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