Inbox: Hey I was hoping you could post this anonymously? I am wanting I raise awareness for Hypresmisis Gravidarum. This is extreme sickness in pregnancy, it is nothing like morning sickness and can be very dangerous. It needs more awareness, especially from doctors but luckily, looks like this word is spreading. This is my story, please keep the bashing to a minimum. Thought I would share it? Sorry if you found it long and boring. Hypremisis gravidarum. What is it? Its a life destroyer, a soul killer....a woman killer, even. Its something I am embarrassed to talk about. Its pathetic, laughable, weak....thats what I am, after all, its only sickness, right? When you have been sick for the 10th time and its only 9.30am, but its only sickness. When your trying to sip water but you throw up half a litre, but its only sickness. When your laying in bed in absolute agony as your whole body is screaming for food, but its just sickness. When you are too weak to even stand up cos your so dehydrated you havent even sipped anything for days, but its only sickness. When your crying yourself to sleep, wishing yourself dead as your in so much pain, but its only sickness. You can stand up without support, you dont have the energy to shower, brushing your teeth isnt even an option. You have a 1 year old daughter, how do you look after her? You cant. You take another mind-numbing trip to the doctors. You tell him that after all the medication, all the advice, nothing is working, you cant do it anymore. He takes your blood pressure and its dangerous. Very dangerous. He sees the fragile skeleton in front of him, chafed lips, grey skin, he calls the hospital and sends you there immediately. The panic in his face starts to scare you. But after all, you dont go to hospital for sickness! You arrive at the hospital, doctors and nurses swarm you, IV fluids, IV anti sickness, bloods taken, tubes and wires everywhere. A doctor comes in and asks you if you are sure you want to carry on with the pregnancy, you are only 5 weeks after all...of course you do! What kind of a mother would do that to stop their pain?? A day passes, nothing changes. The hours all merge into one, the doctors are checking the charts, telling you it will just take time for things to kick in....its just sickness Day 2. Your still throwing up all the same. How can you carry on? You had hypremisis in a previous pregnancy, but a day or so on an IV drip gave you the power to carry on. Not this time, nothing is changing. Im throwing up my own saliva, my stomach lining. But its only morning sickness.. Day 4. Surely something would have changed by now, after all the medication, fluids...it must have fixed it! You dont feel better, you feel dead, you feel like you cannot go on, but you pray in hope for the next consultant to tell you otherwise. He comes, its not good. Your organs are failing, they cant get you stable even though they have done every thing they can. You have already lost a stone, the vomiting is still continuing, this is killing you, Hypremisis is going to kill you, hypremisis is going to take a 1 year old away from her mother, its going to rip a family apart, its going to kill you. How pathetic to die from pregnancy sickness...after all, its only sickness. Day 6. The consultant tells you to terminate this pregnancy. How dare they tell a mother to do that? Over morning sickness?! Thats all it is, isnt it?! You get a second opinion, and a third....they are serious. If you want to survive, if you want to see your little girl get to age 2 you will terminate. Your baby is killing you, hypremisis is killing you. Your laying in the hospital bed, crying your eys out, how can you make this decision? Its your baby inside you! How can you choose to terminate your own baby? Your body is still crying out in pain despite all the hospitals attempts of hydrating you, your still throwing up more than they can give you. You look down at you bruised, battered, deathly body. You look across the room at your husband, your family, your beautiful daughter....you shed another tear as you make your mind up, one of many tears to be shed. You agree. But its only sickness. Day 7. The pain, its stopped, its over, my body is recovering, its breathing a sigh of relief, I can eat, I can drink, Im alive!!!!! I am no longer pregnant, I no longer have Hypremisis Gravidarum. But after all, it was only sickness, right? -kendra
Posted on: Sun, 07 Dec 2014 01:17:32 +0000
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