Insert 142 He came to sit next to me, he seemed down. Lwanda was a terrible person and uye wasiphathela nothing but trouble ebomini bethu kodwa ukufa kukufa, akuqheleki nakubani na but surprisingly I felt nothing, no remorse or sadness in fact I felt relieved, a huge sense of relief and a weight off my shoulders. She was gone for good and soze aphinde abekhona to cause problems for us. All I could say ngaphakathi is Thank God! Me: Im sorry Z: why? Me: that she died, ubengusisi wakho Z: Im not sorry, in fact Thank God! I mean now we can finally live our lives and not worry about the next time she will strike or what she will do next. Im relieved baby....I gave him a faint smile Me: I cant believe it, shes really gone? Unjani umama? Z: she seemed okay, I guess naye she feels the way that we feel. ULwanda was a lot of trouble Me: mm uyabona phofu ukuziphatha kakubi akuzuzi nto? Like wonke umntu is relieved that akasekho. In what world do people rejoice xa kufe umntu? Z: her funeral is this week Me: okay Z: baby? Me: mm? Z: we have our fresh start now....I smiled and kissed him Me: yes we do..... Yafika iweekend and we drove down to Tsolo, umzimba ezobuya nobhuti Lwazi on that Friday. Ndafika ke nam and carried out my wifely duties. Ndanxiba izinto zobufazi and went about my work. My parents arrived and I went to greet them. Ndakhe ndahlala phantsi nabo Mom: Im sure youre relieved...ndathula ndajonga phantsi Dad: akhonto imbi apho dolly kaloku lentombazana ikusokolisile mntanam and yakuphilisa kabuhlungu Me: andinoxoka tata ndithi andikho relieved because I am kodwa ikhona lanto ethi kufe umntu and its dampened my spirit. Bendingamqweneleli kufa uLwanda. Bendifuna nje abone impazamo zakhe ogqibe alungise ubomi bakhe Mom: oh kewena mntanam ngoku ba nentliziyo entle Dad: yintando ka Thixo nale sisi Me: ewe tata....ndazobizwa ngomnye woo-makoti abadala anilambanga kodwa? Mom: hay ntombi si-right thina Me: okay....I got up and left. Sasebenza imini yonke, abantu bemame befika, niyabazi ke abantu be-tea abapheli. Kwakude kutshisa isinqa esi. Sapheka isupper, saphaka then savasa izitya. Zange kubekhona nalo mlindo for uLwanda shame kodwa kwakubonakala noko ukuba uzoba mkhulu umngcwabo wakhe since there were a lot of people. Even uZik was there to help me keyena shame uchomi wam, shes the best :) Yafika imini yomngcwabo, savuka ekuseni and did the norm. Wafika umzimba kwathi ifamily iyombona. UZ found me in the kitchen, wandibiza ndaya kuye Z: baby, masihambe siyobona umzimba Me: yho hay Zusiphe Z: please sthandwa sam...I dont know why but I didnt feel like uyobona uLwanda mna ndiyakucela mfazi wam, I cant do this alone Me: mm okay....ndaya ke nje, to support my husband. Safika phayana kusathandazwa then yavulwa ibhokisi ba siyombona. I saw her and Z squeezed my hand. She had a stitch all around her head and neck but other than that, she was still the Lwanda who wrecked my life and almost ruined it. I stared at her for a long time, she looked so peaceful. Ndahleka kancinci, how ironic is that, when she was alive she was anything but peaceful and now elele pha kula casket yakhe, she was looking like ulele and kamnandi futhi. Ndasuke ndanomsindo, Z pushed me and I moved away, ndayophuma phandle Z: Im sorry Me: its okay, look I have to go. Ill see you later baby ne? Z: I love you Me: I love you too...we kissed nje briefly ogqiba saya our separate ways. Bendise busy when my daughter walked in, yhu engemdaka bethuna nditsho uqala entloko Me: yhu Lilitha! Lily: lambile mamam mna....bahleka aba ndihleli nabo Me: kutheni umdaka nje? Lily: andiyazi...wanyusa amagxa wakhe Me: phosisela ntoni Lily, kutheni umdaka? Ndizakubetha ke! Lily: endidlala noEndinako mama, ngoku ngoku ngoku mna ndanje Zimasa: oh methuni akasemse ndzeee, ndisamthandi mna Me: masihambe ke bhabha Lily: lambile mna mama Nandi: hay Luya, nika umntana ukutya...I laughed, ndamenzela wahlala phantsi watya then ndathatha amanzi ndawaxubela kwi bucket Me: yiza ke baby girl siyohlamba...wabeka isitya sakhe Lily: nkosi.....kwakhala ncoooh endlini then saphuma. Ndafika ekamereni ka Z ndamkhulula then ndakhwaza ubhuti wakhe. Ndabahlamba plus uEndinako noMihlali. Ndabanxibisa babahle Me: zenilinge nizingcolise ke, ndizonibetha!! Mihlali: momncinci! Ndizuzingcolisa mna! Nande: nam dolly Endi: nam Lily: nam mama Me: yeke, anibahle maan! Khanize ndincamise....they all pouted and I kissed them, baphuma bebaleka. I didnt attend the ceremony but it was big just as I predicted and everything went well. By the time abantu behambile, ndandi phefumlela phezulu kudinwa, inyawo zidumbile. Ndafika ekamereni and my hubby was waiting for me namanzi ashushu. I couldnt help but smile Me: whats this? Z: ndizokuthoba inyawo baby Me: you are so thoughtful...I kissed him, ndahlala ebhedini. Ndafaka inyawo zam for a while in the warm water with bath salts ogqiba wanditsho nge foot massage yomhlaba ubaby wam yho baby, your are the best wena kodwa yazi. How did you know Z: a husband always knows...after that we kissed, wayochitha amanzi. Wabuya sehamba neentsana zethu. Bakhwela ebhedini and we all slept. The following day it was the same thing wethu kodwa andasebenza lomhlobo. Engesakhabi unana esiswini ndidikwe finish, ndimbi nalapha ebusweni. Pha emalanga bade bahamba abantu, my parents as well. Kwashiyeka nje ifamily. Sahlala elounge sonke sincokola nje ngoLwanda. Umama ebalisa ngokukhula kuka Lwanda, she seemed like a happy child, andiyaz ukuba wamoshakala xa kutheni. All in all umsebenzi wakhe waye wahamba kakuhle, and she was laid to rest in a dignified way.....
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 23:40:51 +0000