Insert 17 Me: wow,your room is big and beautiful. Thabiso:*smiling*thanks. Me: hmmmmmmm,nice. I like it a lot. Thabiso:*smiling*sit down please. Me: I sat on his bed and he sat next to me. Thabiso:*holding my hands*please be open minded about what about to say to you. Me: ok,go on. Thabiso: I have always watched you from a far because I was scared to approach you. You always look serious and I didnt know how to approach you. You remember the first time I approached you?. Me:*smiling*yes,you were trying to practice your rcl duties on me. Thabiso:#laughing#well that day the vice president(rcl)wanted to chase you out but I stopped her. We had an argument and I ended up winning because am the president. Me:*raise eye brow*am I suppose to say thanks now? Thabiso:*smiling*no,but it too guts for me to approach you that day and I told myself am not gonna give up without a try. You made things hard for me and gosh you are so stubborn. Me: should I feel insulted by that? Thabiso:*smiling*no,I guess what am trying to say is that I love you,I love you more than friends. I will do anything for you. Me:*silent*i didnt know what to say. Thabiso: please say something. Me: aaah.. ....aah....I dont know what to say. Thabiso: do you love me? Me*silent* Thabiso: ok,do you at least like me? Me:*smiling*i do like you but no more than as a friend. Thabiso:*he looked sad*can you give me a chance?....maybe you will learn to love me in the process. Me: look,what if I dont ? Thabiso:*he looked like he was gonna cry*please give me a chance and if it doesnt work,we go back to be being friends. Me:*silent* Thabiso: please,at least think about it. Me:*thinking~they is no way am gonna date Thabiso but if I dont promise him that I will think about it,he wont stop begging*ok,I will think about it. Thabiso:*smiling*thank you soo much and I promise, you wont regret it. Me:*smiling*dont forget,I only said I will think about it. Thabiso:*kissing my cheek*thats more than enough for me. Me:*thinking*his lips felt so soft on my skin. Thabiso: can I ask you something? Me: shoot but dont kill. Thabiso: tell me about your mom. Me:(I stood up quickly from his bed like I have been chocked)I have to now. Thabiso:*holding my hands*bbe you are shaking. He looked shocked. Me: I pushed him away from me. Am fine and I have to go now. Thabiso: calm down. Me:*speaking through gritted teeth*i am calm. Thabiso:*he pulled me back to the bed*relax and talk to me please. Me: what do you wanna know? Thabiso: lets start from how she died. Me: I removed my hands from his and looked down. Thabiso: take your time Me: they say my mom was sick for a month. At first she used to vomit all the time and it stopped and then she started having headaches non~stop and later they stopped. She was starting to get better when all of sudden she started to have severe headaches and thats how she died. The doctor said it was caused by having children because my mom had 5 miscarriages before me and she almost had a miscarriage with me so I was born when I was 7 months old. The doctor said the pressure was too much for her. I felt someone touching my cheeks. Thabiso:*wiping my tears*am soo sorry Me:*smiling*i didnt even realize that I was crying. Its ok. Thabiso: dont say that. Me: you dont understand,my mom died because of me,if she had stop trying to have children she would have been alive now. I killed my own my mother Thabiso. I was now crying so hard.
Posted on: Tue, 29 Jul 2014 09:30:31 +0000