Insert 24 I didnt sleep well at all i kept waking up thinking about what happened on thursday ndi de nda yiphupha i woke up the following day and there was no school i cleaned the house and bathed my self the blood was now coming normal so i was very muc better the day went by i couldnt think of anything or anyone the only thing i was thinking was Luthando the day i slept with him and this baby i then thought of how much i hate my sister even at home i didnt talk that much Mama-sisi utheni na?? Ingathi kunzima nothetha Mna-ndi bhetere ngoku mama Mama-uNcinci a nga kusi kwa gqirha?? Mna-hayi mama ndi zoba right everything went so quick even tha day Ntombi came and Ntebu we talked about everything Ntebu was very much better while i was dying on the inside but i was happy for her that she got the chance and she lives again nsiye nda bakhapha late ndabuya i decided tommorow i go to church maybe i will be better spiritually i wrote Abo a massage that am already in bed so ndi zambona ngomso then he replied saying *why do i feel like you avoiding me??* how do i answer that ngoba be thetha inyani i was really avoiding him i couldnt stand his sight bingathi uyabon deep inside me ba kukhona into enzekayo i said *no babe will make it up to you* he agreed then i thought let me pray To think that time i was living in soweto no day passed without me praying kodwa ngoku uSomandla be ndimcinga oko xa ndi se ngxakini i kneeled down i prayed i even cried was pleasing got to forgive me for what i did i know i have sined in his eyes but niyacela ngelihle igama lomfeli wethu uYesu andixolele i stood up then climbed to bed i didnt feel like eating so i jst slept i wike up the following day very early i cleaned again an took a bath wore my clothe Mna-mama ndi saya ecaweni Mama-yho hayo ubone kakubi ko ku kugula kwakho mos Mna-kakubi kakhulu mama as i was on my way to church i knew one thing i have to confess ndifikile ecaweni ndihamba iRoma ke ndaxelela umfundisi saya egumbini i kneeled down i confesed all my sins and the Father told me to pray then i went out and did all the prayers he ordered me to say *only romans will get me apha* after the wonderfull service i felt much lighter ndava ba some of my problems am leaving them behind i got home ndabulisa ndathatha kutya kwam ndahlala noncinci no mama Ncinci-lisebenzile eli cebo lakho lokuya ecaweni sisi Mna-utshuba?? Ncinci-watsho wabuya uncumile wakwazi nohlala nathi Mna-haha hayi ndiziva bhetere kakhulu yazi Mama-ndiyavuya mntanam xa ufumene uncedo siye satya sagqiba after that mama wathi ndi galele drink i did just that after all that i washed the dishes then toom my phone wrote sisi a massage *I loved you as my sister i wanted the best for you i stood by you in every situation i did all for you, i dont blame you but you shaped me you made me this nasty person iam today i did what i did and all thanks to you if you were never clouded by your cold heart an being selfish nge ezinye izinto zange zenzeke* after a while she replied *uyaba tyiwa ngumva ndedwa ngoku ubhanxela kum* ndathatha phone yam nda beka kude ku nam ndalala ndilila i woke up a while later ndivuswa massage from Abongile *baby i wont be able to come ndi busy apha endlini* i replied telling him akho ngxaki as much as bendi ngafuni udibana naye but i also didnt like it xa singa bonani at all ngoku it was two days full ndingamboni kuye kwaba se busuki ndalala so peacefull it was the first night i slept like that after that arbortion i woke up the following morning i was really looking foward to it yonke into ye yahamba msinya before i knew it it was school out Abo came to mee we walked together to the bus stop we were talking telling him how much i missed him and he said he missed me too iye yafika transport then i wento home he did that too things were slowly going back to normal nangona be ndisonqena nomjonga buy days passed by besinqabelene no Gugu kakhulu uSisi Nokuzola ndamqhibela kudala naye oko ndathetha naye kwa kanye things were still good between me and my Friends. Ntebu was doing well she was even going to school nepilisi be se zithatha ngokwakhe ngoku eclinic yonke into ibiright mani no mama wakhulula izila lakhe yagqitha nayo leyo it was now on december kuphuma i report esikolweni i went to take mine we were all there i passed going to grade 11 Abo too Ntombi too but not Ntebu we couldnt celebrate ngoba omnye wethu ebe ngekho right but she understood she blamed her self ngo ngafuni thatha ipilisi but wabe esithi she will do by all means next year ba apase ndifikile ekhaya mama bevuye kakhulu then i had to go to capetown to my brother for the holiday new people :) new environment:) so excited!
Posted on: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:51:40 +0000
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