Insert 26 #Welamaza Hand to hand we cleaned up the mess *God knows uMha angafa isiqaqa with her newest collection of glasses* Ugqiba kwethu,besekuhlwile so we prepared super right away whilst singing on High Musical songs! :) *Funny,I was feeling lighter,I didnt acknowledge the weight I had on my shoulders until I basically laid it off!* Anyways we laid down the table,dished up and ate. We prayed *If you ask me a little bit longer than usual! :/ * I assisted uSinalo as she ironed impahla zikamama zecawe. As for I, I was still contemplating a no valid excuse about going to chuch.... We finished sabe seshamba sisiya to our room,I got in after taking the bucket * ^_^ * Slid on my night dress and tucked myself in. We exchanged a few words endixelela ngo Kwezi :) ,on how he was a gentleman and all. The same guy that was a cheap jerk last week :) . I checked on my phone and again there were no missed calls nor massages,my heart broke a little. Me,Sinalo? Sinalo,MmMmm. . . Me,Urhm. . . Ngalamini.Waye wathini uSolomz--- Sinalo,That hell wait for you and that hes always there. . . He said he loves you enough to follow your wishes but most importantly he said he thought to knew him better and that he loves you and something like, he cant come and dragged you away because you will never understand that you are free and freely you should come back on your own accord! ---- Me,Loves me?. Sinalo,Yep,ndingalala ngok I took a deep breath and faced edongeni,pulled my legs up to my breast and pulled them down again absently thinking that I didnt want to hurt my baby,ndalala with a huge lump on my throat! Kungaba ndiyazqhatha uba ndithi zendingamkhumbuli umyeni wam :( ,infact I missed him so much that it hurt #sighs physically :( . We woke in a rush,cause uSinalo uvuke late! We brushed our teeth sahlamba nomzimba.Salungisa sikhawlezisa. In no time sabe sesphuma siyothatha imali yokhwela ku Mha! Sabe sesleqa ecaweni. Ndithe ndifika ndabe sendleqa ku Sunday school,uyobaculisa and all. Wasnt long the church started filling up,ndayohlabelisa. Wangena uSolomzi ne family yakhe. I lost my voice, my heart twisted. Bahlala phansti.... Ndagqubeleka managing to find my voice thou squeaky... Drumming on my thigh distracting my thoughts a little and looking up in the celling,hoping I could see the heavens, hoping I could hear God, The worship team finally finished and I gave the church up to uTata. And as I sat down Lusanda sang Malingcwaliswes song. Lusanda,Umkhuleko. . . Unamandla. . .*bangena* Umasi Khule---- I stole a gaze ku Solomzi.I could see tears building up,wasnt long he leashed out the church ndamlandela,my foot steps echoing in my head as the eyes turn to stare at our circus.. Outside I stopped,lost for what should come next,wish I had a script, bible or soapy to know what was next to come... He approached me. Him,Mna how am I suppose to let go of you? Saneli--- Wel--- *He catched his breath* ,what should I even call you? Fanele Ndithini? Ndixelele ndenze kanjani? Mkam!! Mkam!! Nkosikazi yam,ndithini... Ndyaxokisa Okay! Come on babe, come home! I promised myself I wouldnt do this, I prayed I wouldnt do this!!! Andaz why you dragging this!!! I thought you knew me bett---- I thought you trusted me enough, I thought uzondixelela yonkinto!!! Didnt promise faith sheared a little of my soul to you!!!! Babe please come home!! You left me with no word! With nothing, you couldnt Wella, you couldnt let me in... Please tell me! Damm----** I pulled my myself away and matched home,leaving him behind blank. Wasnt till I rubbed my eyes that I noticed that I was crying. I never heard my husband swear before, I did that to him! I broke this man God gave me, like Eve in Eden I have lead him in trespasses!!! The taxi dropped straight phambi ko Ludwe #sighs . . . I wiped my cries away and got off. Ludwe followed me,pacing up to catch on me and then pulled me by my waist turning my whole body at his direction. Ludwe,Wella, lewai yakho yoku acter childis---- *My tears just fell down on me!* I hawled at him,You think Im acting. *i catched my breath* I left my husband! And came here! *I shoved him using my rights hand four fingers* Ever since then,you have been treating me like filth, like some gum under your shoes Ludwe! *I tilted my head* ,No that I expected anything from a prick like you, mamela ke Xego, umamele kakuhle vha! *I used my left hand to brush off the tears!* ,Ndingumfazi KaMalingcwaliswe, not that, that should mean anything from you!! You dont even respect that! Hell you dont even respect me! Ndiyakonyanya, uyandiva *I was staring at him, holding his gaze* ,I loath you and further more I hate me for you and if you think I came here by choice you are more big headed than I thought! Ndiziswe!!! *i wiped my tears! Bendifuna umbona kakhle!*,Ndi--- mhhh, NDIZISWE nguMntana lo wakho apha!!
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 21:37:44 +0000
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