Insert 47 S3 Mark: honey,am never gonna sleep with any girl,I love you too much to see you hurt and I dont wanna risk losing you. Its not worthy it. Me: I just smiled looking at him. I wish I could believe him but I cant . I wish I could say I trust you my love but I cant . Thats the thing with trust,once its broken its very hard to mend it. Mark: sighed,in time you will learn to trust me. He kissed my forehead and looked down. Me: did you eat anything today? Mark: I was about to.... Me: ok,let me go and check if they something you can eat in the kitchen. I went to the kitchen and his water was there. Her: how is he? Me: good,is there anything he can eat? Her: yes,his food is in the microwave. Me: I warmed his food and he came to the kitchen looking all fresh and hot. Mark: he kissed my neck,whats for lunch. His sister looked at him smiling. Her: am glad that you are ok now,she said that smiling. Me: I gave him his food and went to the living room. I took my bag and went back to the kitchen. Am leaving now,I said that with a smile looking at both of them. Mark: I will take you home after eating. Me: dont worry,I will catch a taxi,I hugged his sister and walked out. He followed me to the gate. Mark: I said I will take you home,didnt I? Me: I just looked at him and shook my head. We walked to the garage and we got inside the car. He drove me home and when we got to my street he parked few houses from ours. Mark: he looked at me and smiled. Thank you for giving me a second chance. Me: I just smiled at him..... Mark: I promise to do my best to not hurt you again. Me: dont promise me anything honey,life is soooo predictable. I smiled at him and I could see that he what I said really hurt him. I hugged him and went home. I got home and my ex parents were still there. I greeted them and went to my room to change. After changing I made something to eat. I sat down in the kitchen and ate my food. My step mom joined me when I was in the middle of eating. Her: hey Me: hi Her: how was school? Me: what do you want? Her: nothing....I just wanna how was your day. Me: dont talk to me,I said that looking at her with a straight face. Her: am sorry honey for what I did,I know its uncalled for but..... Me: look,I said dont talk to me ok,please dont make me say something that you will regret ever meeting me. Her: she at me and looked down. Am just..... Me: I finished eating and cleaned my plate and left the room. Am not really in the mood for her or my sooooo called dad. I went to my room and studied like nobody`s business. Later I went to start on dinner since it was late already. Mpho came late from school and I knew she was at her boyfriend`s house. She helped me finish cooking and we served dinner when everyone was home. We all sat down in the dinning room and ate. Everyone was quiet,no one wanted to break the silence,so we finished dinner in silence. Later rosa and yolanda did the dishes while I went to sleep. I was called again for the so called family meeting. Grandpa: we need to get to the bottom of this situation. We are family and we should start act like one. Yes we all make mistakes but we should learn to forgive and move on. Ntoko you need to forgive me and your parents for what we did. It was uncalled for ,selfish and stupid. I miss my princess,I want her back,can I please have my princess back? I know I should have stood by you thick and thin,I should have protected you but I didnt . I have nightmares every night because of that. I cant live with myself knowing that the one I only love,my little princess hates me. I cant take it anymore. I want to be the one you run to when you have problems. I want to be the pillar of your strength again. I want you to need me again. I want to see you smile my princess,real smile. I want things to go back to where it used to be. I just want you back all in all. Me: I looked at him and I felt sorry for me and for my grandpa. We used to be soooo close. I used to talk to him about anything,even about boys and all that but now,its just nothing. Grandpa: I know you hate me now my princess but.... Me: I dont hate you grandpa,I dont hate you at all. You know,you taught me never to trust any human being ever. You were my everything and my all. I trusted you with my life and thats the worst mistake I have ever made. what did you do? You throw it right in my face. You made me regret every moment I spend with you,you know why? Because after what you did,you made me doubt if you ever truly loved me at all. You made me doubt if all those time we spend together were real or pretends. You made me doubt myself and worst of all,you made me lose faith in everything but through all that I found myself again slowly but surely. And now you come here and say you are sorry? We are of the same blood but you betrayed me ,oh hey you did more than that. People say blood is thicker than water but I dont think it apply to us. Its funny if you ask me but hey who am I to judge you. But I just want you to know that I dont hate you and am also not angry at you. But things will never be the same again,that I know for sure. As for my step mom,I looked at her and gave her a faint smile,fortunately for you,you will never have to deal with me ever again. I know thats you dont like me at all and that you only want to be with my ex dad and your child and I cant blame you for wanting to be with your own family but dont ever come to me and act all mother marry on me or I swear you are going to regret the day that you met me. I want you to be you and dont hide how you feel about me,I already know. I hope you understand me. I looked at my dad and sighed. We have had our moments if you ask me. I used to hate every fiber in your body for abandoning me after my mother`s death,but we managed to come past that. But now you sold me to the devil and I dont think I will ever forgive you for that. My hatred for you is more than before,I cant stand the sight of you,I cant stand you,every time I see you,I see a man who denied me in front of the world and throw me to the wolf to have party with me. I see a man who is not fit to be called my dad. I see you as the devil himself but hey thats just how I feel. I just hope you find happiness with your new family and that you will also stop bothering me. I took a deep breath and I realize that I was crying. I wipe my tears and laughed at myself. Look at me,crying for people who dont give a damn about me. I said that out loud. I looked at grandpa,well grandpa,everything is sorted now as you wanted. Goodnight all,wish you all a good dreams. I stood up and went to my room. I fell on my knees and prayed to God to forgive me for the person I have become and to give me a heart to forgive and forget. After praying I heard someone saying amen the same time I did. I looked up to see Mpho kneeling next to me. We just looked at each other and smiled. We all went to sleep but she slept in my bed and I didnt ask her why. Days passed and my ex parents were still there but my grandparents left. My life was just fine. Mark and I we were getting there. We were taking things slowly and liked that. It was now saturday and I went to Mark`s house and usual but this time it was his sister who came to fetch me. Me: I hugged her and kissed her cheek. Hey Her: hey honey how are you? Me: good and you? Her: good. Me: where is mark? Her: I dont know,he just asked me to fetch you and I will leave. Me: leave? Her: am going for a sleep over at my boyfriend`s house. Me: hmmmmmmmm We got to there house and she just dropped me at the gate and left. I went inside the gate and I was greeted by Mark looking soooo damn fine. He took my hand and kissed it. Mark: welcome home my love,he said that with a big smile on his face. Me: thank you,I smiled back. He opened the door and I was greeted with red roses scattered on the floor all over the house. I looked at him confused. Me: babie whats going on? Mark: you will find out soon. Me: oh. We went to the sitting room and it was even worst with roses. I sat down and he sat next to me. Do you want anything to eat or drink? Me: no am fine,just tell me whats going on? Mark: he took the remote and played westlife~queen of my heart. I looked at him smiling,he knows that I love that song. He leaned in for a kiss and we kissed one long kiss and I broke it and looked at me smiling. Mark: I love you Ntoko,I love you with all that I got and I dont have. I cant stop thinking about you. It took you only 5 minutes for you take your place in my heart. You are my world and my beyond world. Words cant describe the love I have for you. He said all that looking me deep in the eyes. I love you Ntokozo Angel Khumalo. Me: tears streamed down my cheek,of course tears of happiness. I love you too honey. Mark: good,he went on his knee, and took a small box which was on the table. Will you merry me Ntokozo Angel Khumalo? He said that with the box open in front of me showing a diamond ring. Me: I swallowed hard. Can I have some water?I said that out loud but I didnt mean to ......
Posted on: Sat, 27 Dec 2014 17:30:47 +0000