Insert 54 Laxhuma uvalo ndaluva lujika emqaleni,emva koko laxhesha ngokubetha igubu lingandiniki chance yakuphefumla.I had to literally calm myself,I logged out and put the phone down then I got up ndema ngeenyawo. I breathed in and out with my hand esifubeni,ukuma ngeenyawo bekungandincedisi nganto so I sat down on the floor.After sometime I felt better,belungasabethi ngalaa pace belubetha ngayo kuqala uvalo. If theres one thing I cant do ndingumntu nje kukulinda ndibe ndizulisa ngoku into indityayo.I took my phone &called Kamogelo.. Kamo : Mntanam Me : Umithiswe nguwe u Aseza? Kwathuleka... Me : Ndiyabuza Kamo : Ewe Palolo umithiswe ndim. Me : Okay,I wanted to know nje loo nto. Kamo : Im sorry Palolo,ndicela ukuzokubona and explain. Me : Ndiyacela nje kube kanye ebomini bakho,ndicele into uyenze..Ndicela ungezi.. I hung up...Almost every joint in my body became weak,ndiye ndazicenga ndakhwela ebedin...Kwiintsuku zam zokutya amazimba kulo mhlaba that was the first time I felt humiliated and betrayed ngeyona ndlela igqibeleleyo...That day left me confused de kuzoba yile mini yanamhlanje. Andikayazi whether love really hurts or what cause xa uthi love hurts ndiye ndingqine ngoba ndiyayazi intlungu endayifumana ngenxa yoluthando. Ukanti naxa usithi love doesnt hurt ndiye ndingqine ngoba ndiyalwazi nolonwabo endalufumana ngenxa yoluthando. So if you ask me about love,here is my answer : Love is complicated&it complicates your heart too. I tried falling asleep with no luck so I just layed there and logged in on facebook again.I went through Asezas wall again,kwakungasekho nto ebinokundi hurta more ukodlula le bomb ndigqiboyifumana.I noticed that Aseza ubekhona kwangeliya xesha lika Sisipho,I wondered why engazange waziveza.If she was 8months pregnant that meant ngoNovember wonyaka ophelileyo ubesele ekhona...Ndide ndalala... Hours later ndivuswe yi call ka Kamogelo. Me :Mh? Kamo : Ndicela uxolo Palolo,ndicela ukukucacisela ukuba yenzeke njani yonke lento. Me : Ufuna ukucacisa ntoni,how you planned to hurt me nje kwasekuqaleni? Kamo : I never meant to hurt you,it was a mistake. A mistake that Ill forever regret. Me : Ayikho enje imistake Kamogelo.A mistake is when you trip&fall ungaqondanga,when doing calculations ufake ino.nje ibenye engasiyiyo...But when you take a girls pants down ungasebenzisi condom sekuyenye into. Kamo: Ndizisola yonke imihla ngalento Palolo. Me : When were you going to tell me? Kamo:I tried telling you,ngoku bendisithi kukho into endifuna sithethe ngayo.But khange ndikwazi wawuvele ube bussy xa ndizothetha,waphinda wanqaba ubussy siskolo. I kept quiet.. Kamo: Even before that ndandikhe ndazama qha ndoyika,the time wawufuna sisebenzise icondom usithi awufuni kumitha because that can change your life ngemistake enye. Ndathi kemna kunokuthiwani na xa sele ekhona umntana, there are mistakes ezibutshintshayo nyhani ubomi babantu,cause ndinayo endiyenzileyo nendizisola ngayo.Nendoyikayo ukuba Id lose very important people xa inokuvela. I was scared of losing you,ndiyoyika nangoku. Me : Yazi yonke uyithethayo ayenzi mehluko,wazama awazama ukuthetha nam akwenzi mehluko nyhani.The fact remains,you cheated on me wamithisa...Ndicela ukulala ke ngoku. I hung up ndacima iphone,zange ndiphinde ndibuthi chwe ubuthongo.Ndandilila nje qha,phofu kuphuma iinyembezi kuphela yayiqaqamba intliziyo ngathi kukho lo uyimele ngokuyihlaba ngenaliti.Kwasa ke ndihleli,ukuvuka kwam ndayohlamba.Amehlo ebetshotshozela from all the crying.Ngethamsanqa I had no lectures ngalaa mini,I stayed in bed for the whole day nursing my heart. After 4pm I switched my phone on,I had tons of messages from Kamo exela how sorry he is & asking for forgiveness.andiphendulanga nenye,ukusuka apho ndiye ndaphuma ndakhwela itaxi and went to his place. Imain door ivuliwe ndiye eroomin yakhe,wothuka asondibona watatazela akazi noba makathini.Xa ndimjonga I remembered the firsy day sibonana esithi ungutata wakwam,ungutata wabantwana bam.Soon ebezoba ngutata womnye umntwana ongasingowam.Ndasothula phezulu esofelweyo isikhalo,uye wandibamba wandihlalisa phantsi.Inoba yaphela into engange 30 minutes ndilila,crying out loud...ndide ndathula. Kamo : Palolo Im sorry,I love you,I never meant to hurt you&I dont wanna lose you. Kodwa noba udecider enini Ill accept cause Im in no position yokuthi yithini.Kodwa ndikwithemba lokwenzelwa inceba. Me :Ndikunike konke okwam,kodwa wena wandivisa kabuhlungu.Kunceda ntoni ukuhlala kodwa kuzobe kungekho trust? Soze ndiphinde ndikuthembe. Ndiphinde endlini,I needed someone to talk to.I logged in on mxit,Kutlwano was online. Me : Uyamazi u Aseza Ngubo? Kutlwano : yes,why? Me :U pregnant with Kamos baby. Kutlwano : Yoh I didnt know Me : Im hurt&inoba kuphelile kanje. Kutlwano: Im hurt my self my love,but please dont let this get to you.Just be strong,I know its not as easy as I put it but please dont hurt yourself too much.I know you loved the guy dearly.
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 11:08:14 +0000
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