Insert 63 You know that feeling when shit hits you in the face that you really love your ex and it would be bad for the person you with now to still have that space for her so now you moving on from that by hurting so that you can give lo ukhoyo the ability to love you..And when its time to let go it affects the current one and she wont understand and nawe you tell her cause you know it will make her feel small for thinking about your ex while you with her...letting go of Zee is gonna be the toughest thing Ive done in a very long time...and into ba ndithi Im gonna be involve with somoone else nzobe ndimosha nje ngesha lam nalomntu umtsha cause Zee usengumntuwam qha I cant be with her... Think she needs to be alone akazikhangele ba eyona nto ayifunayo yinton xa ingendim... Zee woke up the following morning wandvusa...told her yesterday was my last day @ work...she went to take a bath I got up ndamkhuphela impahla yonxiba ironed it ndaybeka ba makanxibe after shes done bathing...went to sleep again...babe sebumkile ubuthongo...she came back wathambisa wanxiba...she came to sit next to me...Zee:Meza..Me:Mhm..Zee:So this means you leaving?..Me:Ewe Im leaving tomorrow afternoon...Ill book a flight today cela undigodusele imoto yam xa une chance ndoyika uziqhubela kulemeko ndikuyo..Zee:Cela ungahambi please..Me:Andibon nto indihlalisayo ngoku...cela uze noLiso xa uzisa imoto...Zee:Okay...Ill see you after work xa ndizothatha into zam..Me:No ungahlala apha for as long as you want cause nzobe ndingekho...andikugxhothi..she held my arm...kissed my forehead then left for work....its gonna be a really long day...I slept...I woke up hours later...Ntondo was busy playing engandiphi chance yolala tu!!!...I woke uo ndondlula then went to bath...got out ndasula thambisa ... Wore leggings and Zees t-shirt...her scent... That broke my heart...yha nhe... I tood a deep breath then walked to the kitchen and made myself something to eat then went to the living room ndayi potato couch... Bendingazokwenza nix namhlanje... I felt pains on my abdomin...andazihoya cause I was stressing and gqirha bethe I shouldnt... Only if he knew ba ndiyatyelwa...the pains were getting closer and very painful... And they were not just pains these were labour pains....I got up...kunzima uma...I slowly walked to my bedroom tears started streaming down...I held on the wall ndishixiza njalo...I finally reached my phone...I called Zee...she picked up on the 2nd ring...Me:Im having labour pains......I cried...she hung up...I sat down on the bed and cried...no man It cant be!! Its too soon....Zeearrived after what seemed like hours...she picked me up and left wondikhwelisa motweni and drove to the hospital...We arrived esbhedlele Zee screamed fo help...a security guard helped her carry me and I was attended to... Zee was pacing up and down in the waiting room...the not knowing of why Phumeza was having labour pains was killing her...after 2hours...the doctor walked up to her...Doc:Maam..Zee:Are they okay??please tell me they fine!!!..the Doc smiled...Doc:She and the twins are fine...bebeguquka abantwana...Zee:Did you say twins??..Doc:Ewe sisi twins..thats why siskhulu olwahlobo isisu sakhe...you can go see her..Zee literally ran to the ward...I was laying the staring into space...Zee walked in...she sat next to me holding both my hands...Zee:Baby...Me:Zee..Zee:Doc says we having twins.....she was soo happy ... The smile in her face said it all...Me:Ewe she told me...Good keeps blessing me...Im more than greatful to him..Zee:Cela ungahambi Phumeza we can make this work...please dont give up on me...on us...Me:I didnt give up on us Zintle you did....
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 21:33:38 +0000