Insert #8 Was I being selfish, Zee told me her everything but I couldnt do the same infact that only happened now. I cant get close to him, Esothando is one insecure guy and I cant loose him I love him so much. I have to tell this guy to stop calling me.. Zee and I decided to call Tee before we sleep [Phone ringing] Tee: ntondini entle Zee&me: moffie ndini Tee: yhu ezi rubbish zihleli kunye yhu nanko uGreen endifumana. Zee: xolo maan chomie siqomba masifone ngoku ungekalali ukwi loud speaker ke. Tee: ngoku ithi lonto andinamhleba omnye komnye apho kuni? :v :v Me: ewe kaloku khona wenzani? Tee: ndihleli kwi stairs bendisazama u investigator ngelathsothso besithetha ngalo kutha ngu Luyanda couldnt get more information kuske kwangena esasbhanxa singandifuniyo uLazola. Tee had a huge crush on Lazola who was a rugby player at school but Lazola hated Tee maybe because of what he is which is gay, many huys have problems with gay I see nothing wrong I love my friend for who he is and that will not change a gay is a human being and thats it. Me: mxm usahoye lowo ungamyeki nje chomi yazazi umhle unento yonke khona umfana ozamfumana ozokuthanda. Zee: and Buhle is telling the truth one day you will find your man Tee: a man that will love me isigantsontso sengximbela yomfana andifunqule andithi khunqu. We laughed, we carried on chatting till we said our goodbyes and slept. Days went by with Luyanda calling me and sending smses he made me feel special but I didnt want to entertain him, I kept on giving him the cold shoulder. I loved my Eso despite what he did but I loved him. He cheated on me with a girl which is 2 years younger than me but still I forgave him the chick used to do funny stuff, coming to my room pretending to be friendly then later go to Eso and cry that I am doing nasty stuff to her. I didnt mind that I forgave my man and they broke up. When ever we fought with Eso I knew he would flirt with other girls I couldnt understand it but then I forgave him because of the love I had for him. I cried day and night, I even had my own spot were I would just sit and write my diary. 5months later.... I sat on the grass (my spot were I wrote my diary) with my head in my hands, I kept rocking gently, forward and backwards. It became so familiar it almost felt like home. I was always here. How could life be so cruel sometimes, and so tiring? I was totally spent emotionally. First I had to deal with Aphiwe now it was Hlumela I needed to stay strong. If I showed that there were even tiny cracks. In my stoicism, I will soon crumble. I have to keep it together for the sake of my academics and of course for me. If I stop coping for one day then everything would topple down around me. And then Luyanda came into my life, and when I was with him, I no longer felt the need to be constantly kicking, just to stay on the surface and survive. I felt light, as if I were finally floating, and everything was right in the world. I received a call. [Incoming call Tee] Me: hey Tee: hey? Hey? Uthi nyey ntoni kunini ndikufuna uzafunda nini ntombazana ulibele kuzikhathaza ngesifebe sendoda osaziyo sizakuthi nyorry buya apho ukhoyo uzofunda sise holweni[he dropped the phone before I could answer] I picked up my sorry ass got to my room and took my books. We were preparing for June exams. Zee: sana ubuphi you look horrible Me: usual spot chomam. Tee: nyunywal snyot uyayiqonda uzaku apply ngale report cela sifunde bethunana. As we all know Tee hated Esothando. When we were busy with our studying we heard someone singing I turned to look. It was Anda (Luyanda ) thats how I called him. My heart melted right into his voice am I falling for this guy? What about Eso?
Posted on: Thu, 20 Mar 2014 08:15:07 +0000
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