Interesting how we got some snow. Little different than last year. Walked outside and could breath, first time in five years it didnt take a half hour to adjust. Started the snowblower and used it. Yea I used it to blow the snow out of the driveway, the road and the neighbours. Ever missed shovelling snow, sorry stupid question but amazingly I did. Now what took me a while you likely wouldve done a lot quicker but I did it. I cleaned off the trucks, moved them out of the driveway, brought the garbage to the curb and yes than did fish tails and doughnuts on the four wheeler in the street. That was really fun for sure. Everyday I get some freedom back, I get some life back. Yea theres set backs, I was down for two days this week. I was also up for five and was able today. I have been sick for so long I had forgotten what it was like to be useful again. When I was sick I worked. I didnt have this energy though. I was tired every day and found new limitations every day. I had to get a bunch of paper work together which involved papers from all the doctors. There was some very interesting comments in those papers. I wasnt aware of this but everybody recorded everything that was going on. My level of health, my attitude, how I felt. One of the comments stated that although matt feels as though he is doing awesome he has not realized just how sick he is. The symptoms he is starting to experience and the underlying health affects are becoming apparent to us but not to him. There were a couple of other items that were brought up but I will keep those to myself for now. I would like to read all the literature as a bit of self discovery. Hopefully they will reprint for me. I might not have realized you know how sick I was. I look back now and remember days when I would feel completely useless. I couldnt run with the girls, skate with the girls, shovel snow, go outside. There was a lot I couldnt do. Today I realized a bit that yea I guess I was really sick. I still tried though and didnt accept for the most part what was going on. I was going to prove everyone wrong. This sickness would not win, would not beat me. I am stronger and more stubborn than it so I will win. Well I think I won. I lasted four years longer than I was supposed to. I beat several complications while in the hospital all for the hope of one day being able to be man I want to be. I didnt know failure and even though I felt like I was losing a couple of times I kept with it. It was my family that drove me, we all have our own reasons for living. If I failed I would cross that road when I got to it. Im happy I fought hard, Im happy I received that heart from that donor who I will never know, that family that through tragedy allowed me to have great glory. To experience life again the way it should be experienced. Im posting a video of me having some fun. If you ever wanted to know if your organ donation would do anything please watch this video. When your done watching me acting like a kid, picture the four wheeler sitting in the driveway covered in snow, tires flat and rusting away. With out the heart this video wouldve never taken place. Thank you to my donor for today, without you there would be no me.
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 17:49:54 +0000
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