It is so hard to find my place in this church when the chief concerns are so empty and insignificant. I want to publically address something with my facebook family and friends. I questioned the timing because I do not wish to cause a stir or bad feelings at this time of the year, but I read this article this morning and I cant help but feel that the timing is right. This is something I need to do. I would like to go into the new year with a blank slate and a fresh start. I wish I could have meaningful conversations about the following with those I love individually, and on a more personal level. I would like to sit with you, to hold each other, and listen to your worries and concerns. Unfortunately this is not a possibility, either from the distance between us geographically, or the emotional chasm that rests between the distance of our beliefs. I do not post this to bait a religious debate, but simply as an explanation of where I am at. Im sure past posts have hinted at my spiritual journey and I would like to simply make it official in order to continue the pursuit of a more authentic life. I no longer believe in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. This is not a statement I make lightly. This is not something I decided overnight; this has been a year-long journey of prayer and study. It is not a decision I have made because it is easier this way. It is not easy. It has been one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I will not go into the details leading to this decision but have instead chosen to use this blog post (not written by me, but by an active, believing member) to touch on some of the concerns that led me to this decision. I feel strongly about a lot of these issues and the churches approach to them fostered many of my questions. I post this link not to criticize the church or defend my decision, but simply to give insight of where I am coming from. I know some may feel the need to defend their church leaders, and I completely understand that you may feel it is your responsibility to do so. I have been there. I ask that this not be the space for it. Again, I am posting this not to criticize, or as an attempt to deconvert you in any way but to shed light on my own, personal decision. Know that this is merely a piece of my decision, the tip of the iceburg if you will. If you would like to know more about my journey, please, ask!!! These issues evoke such powerful emotions, so I feel the need to request that you do respect my announcement. Please, do not bare me your testimony. I welcome questions to be directed to private messages or with phone calls, attacks will be ignored. I may no longer have a testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints as a whole, but I do have a testimony of many of the people who continue to worship within. They are, and always will be, my history, my family and a deep part of who I am. I am not angry at the church; I have simply decided it is not the place for me. I will continue to respect your feelings that it is yours. With love, Marcie
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 20:56:08 +0000