It is that time of year to be reflective, to reminisce about about the good things, and yes, the not so good things that have happened in my life in 2014. True, its not yet over with, so anything can still happen in the next 8 days or so (I can think of a few good things! :D), but I do feel I need to point out a few of those good n bad times, if yall will indulge me. :-) Lets begin with the not so good: Death. :-( My nephew passed away on June 1st, of more than one form of cancer, but all terminal. Yet, he had been in that critical situation for almost 2 years...and you imagine? I was SO blessed to see him a year ago today, on Christmas Eve, 2013, when he flew down to San Francisco a few days prior...and believe me, he probably wasnt really in well enough shape to do that, but he did it anyway. Im starting to well up thinking about that now. I hadnt seen him, Sean, for 10 years, since my dad passed away on August 1st, 2003. Yes, its a bit interesting and ironic that Grandad and Grandson passed away on the 1st of the month. Sean looked okay when I saw him that evening, but of course I could see some things that, well, just didnt seem right, or good. Of course he knew that, and I never said anything, but yes, quietly I did feel sorry for him. Forty-Two years old?? Yes, I know, young children suffer with that horrible disease also, sigh. It was just great to finally see him again, but of course I wish it hadnt been in such a circumstance. You are and will be always in my thoughts, Sean!! Theres just us 3 now, in my family: My brother, sister-in-law, and I. But thankfully, I now also have a family here at my home, and I really dont know where Id be/what I would do... His mom and dad are having a tough time this Christmas, as you can imagine. Thankfully I will be with them on the 29th, when they visit with me up here. Id like to think that Sean will be with us. :-) ♥ Another personal loss this year was a girlfriend whom I was never able to meet in person: Christina. She lived in Michigan, and it just never worked out in our favor. I considered her my best friend that Id never met. :-) You should see all of the e-mails and instant messages we had for over those 7 or so years! I like to think that, in fact Im sure that we helped one another get through, or at least try or best to get though, so many things we had on our plates. What stands our for me, was when she paid for my airplane ticket to go to the Southern Comfort Conference event, in 2008--something that truly change my life that week! But of course that wouldnt have happened without her help. I suppose I could have got there somehow without her help, but honestly, no, probably not, not back then anyway. And yes, I believe I helped her also through the years, with trans-related issues and things. She was married, with 2 lovely daughters, so I couldnt relate to that (the children part anyway), but yes, being married, I could, back then I mean. Dang I miss her!! She was just 49, heart attack, and some other problems--and she was a HUGE cyclist, 1000s of miles a year! I dont understand things like that, sigh, so unfair, just like Sean. I love you Christina, always and forever, I hope you can somehow know that!! ♥ Well, this has become more than I had planned, but I do want to skim over some good things and times from 2014, including: Hormones, finally! :-) Started on 12/8/13, my parents anniversary ironically...and everything is going well, thankfully, maybe a bit too slowly, but I am kinda old ya know. ;) I just feel, on the inside, and outside too, much happier nowadays! If my money situation(s) would finally clear up, then Id be like scary happy!! :D I wanna be scary happy soon!! :D Another beautiful thing that happened in 2014 was my roommate Eleni getting married, to her man Carl, yay! They, I think, needed one another in that way--though yes I think they were happy most of the time while courting for some years, but anyway this just seemed right to me. I dont know what I would have done without her these past 4 years since moving here from Illinois, and its still so amazing to me how all of that worked out in the beginning! My wish is for this happy couple to stay happy, and a couple, for like a couple (at least!) of decades more! ♥ One more beautiful thing, and time, from this year was my trip and time back home, to Greenville (and also Springfield) Illinois, this past September. I mention this pretty recently (plus after I got home) so I wont spend much more time about it here, other than to say I am and always will be SO grateful it all happened, and how well it turned out, and how I was so fortunate (you know whom you are! ♥) to have had the opportunity to go there in the first place! To all my friends back there: Thank You for everything!! ♥ And yes, you CAN go back home again, Mr. Wolfe! Told ya so!! :-p :D Have a Joyous Christmas everyone, and THE best 2015 ever!! Like theres another another one coming! :D ♥
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 16:17:17 +0000
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