It isnt the other person.... Granted there are sick people out there I have to face the fact that I teach ppl how to treat me by what I put up with and allow. I never understood that fully until recently when I willingly put up with some horrible behaviors and took them on as my truth. They were not in a healthy place emotionally and I made excuses for how they treated me instead of taking action to stand up for myself(rare and unusual circumstances, grief is a bastard). I took a very noble and humble stance, somewhat cowardly, because I didnt want to cause more problems. In the end my compromising of my character value only made me physically ill and ended up hurting all involved anyway. Note to self, when someone acts like they dont want you around, push away - pull closer, its a great barometer that they do not know what they want. Never settle for being an option in a relationship when you can be someone elses whole world. If I have anything going for me in life its that I understand the importance of self examination and inner work. Its not the world around me with the problem as much as it is how Im reacting to it. What Im willing to accept in human interaction is what I will receive.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Jul 2014 11:50:37 +0000