It seemed like a good idea at the time, the immortality, the eternal youth. My mentor reassured me with her crimson lips, her caresses, her murmured endearments, all the while stroking my beardless cheek with her blood-red nails, nuzzling my pulsating throat, ‘You will be mine, forever.’ And then she sank her ivory fangs into my neck, and drank deep, deeply, deepest, drawing out my very soul. That night I died, only to be born again by the light of the next rising moon. No Christ figure I, never again would I set foot in a house of worship or defile a temple of faith. The daily company of men was forbidden me; I sought nightly those of my own kind and those foolish enough to venture forth, becoming appeasement for my unceasing hunger, my insatiable lust for life. Time passes, the world changes, mountains crumble, oceans rise; I remain the same. I do not change, I cannot die; my mentor’s words were spoken in truth: forever young, forever untouched by the passage of time. Everyone I know, everyone I ever loved is dead. No one loves such a one as myself. You cannot see me, as I stand behind you while you brush your golden hair, paint your perfect lips, not reflected in any mirror, unfelt by your beglamoured senses. Your beauty, your innocence, are all that I crave, yet what I desire most is your death, to drink in your essence, your soul, to feel the life pour out of you, to hold you tenderly as your veins empty into mine, to watch fondly as your rosy glow is replaced by an icy pallor. And yet with your death I am deprived of your life. The warmth I would swallow, the blood filling me with your essence, your very soul, will in turn guarantee that I shall never have you again. I wait for you to unclasp the heavy silver chain, the one that encircles the throat I yearn for, that keeps me from reaching out and touching the very thing that I desire most, and pray that you do not. Yes, it seemed like a good idea at the time. But now, as I cannot have your death, I desire my own; and yet, I cannot die. I cannot die.
Posted on: Wed, 25 Sep 2013 07:32:37 +0000
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