It sucks when you get stabbed in the back by one of your friends. When an enemy tries to attack you, you can see it coming and it doesnt hurt that bad, but when your friends just stab you in the back, it hurts a million times worse than anything. The people you trust with everything just abandon you for dirt. They use you, whether its for money, or what you have, or whatever it is. You think you can trust them but in the end you only get crushed because you share everything with them. good times, bad times, and then they just leave you. You can try to move on from it but it never works. Try to forgive and forget but the pain and the void in your life is still there. All you can do is wonder how you could feel so stupid by letting them get that close and then have them bring you down when they leave. It sucks. it really does. And then to not know what to do, how to move on, or if you will ever be able to let anyone into your life or trust them for the fear that they will treat you the same way as the previous ones and then it just becomes a constant thing of pain and misery that you have to live through because you worry about letting someone else in and them breaking you down. You start to wonder what you did wrong, how you could have fixed it, what could have been done(if anything) to solve it. But when you look back there is no solution to this equation. When you look back you see the happy times that you shared and then you begin to cry because you know they will never come back, That the past is in the past and cant be fixed. Then you ask yourself how can i deal with this, how can i move on? And the truth is you cant. No matter how hard you try to bury it or try to fix the problems it just gets worse and worse. And then in the end you end up more miserable than when you started. But thats all part of life i guess.
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 08:08:44 +0000